Butterflies and Hurricanes

devastated part II.

2010-03-25T13:56:00.007+08:00

okay pada asalnya nak lepaskan geram sebab uia tak offer short sem.
I mean,like,why?so the web says that they'll be offering short semester then out of sudden oh short semester is only reserved for 3 seats only for BM class.

??????????????????????????????????????????????????

ok.firstly.DO NOT give hope to us by saying that "short sem intended for repeaters but you can take the other subjects required by the university" and definitely DO NOT put up the notice that said with both semesters WITHOUT saying that it is very,very limited.come on man,only 3 seats?ugh.beri harapan palsu kat aku yang sangatlah berkobar-kobar nak masuk gombak ~~sebab tak larat duduk rumah asyik kena marah dan aku yang degil ni tak pernah lah nak berubah supaya tak kena marah lagi so gombak is the only option out~~ I mean like whaaaaaaaaat.dahla malam tadi punya semangat pukul 12 dah bukak website semata2 nak register so tak lembab lah kan server nya.tengok2 in the end?aku tak taulah nak cakap apa.ni pun sebab dah petang kebengangan aku dah reda so I'm like,redha je lah kan nak buat macam mana lagi.sighs.

luckily pagi tadi when i was like fuming suddenly i opened this tab and saw

BAPAK COMEL TERUS TAK JADI NAK MENCARUT2.
ehem.so actually he was singing a cover for You're My Lady (yang aku habis2 dok repeat since last night until now) and tengah busy2 pause je tapi tak sedar terpause kat mana bila bukak balik and I was,d'awwwwwwwwwwwwwwhh ;___;

riight.like always;3 months of absence and all i did was spazz.and complain.and whine.gosh.i need a life.

devastated.

2010-03-20T16:53:00.001+08:00

so i'm officially converting myself from an ambiguous elf to a proud shawol.

bpk sedih tak dapat pergi super show TT__TT

entah bila shinee nak datang malaysia kan.but since dbsk and suju dah datang,diorang akan datang jugalah kan lambat laun pun.kan.kan.kan.

*cries silently.my rm138*

i hid under your porch because i love you.

2009-12-09T15:26:00.007+08:00

so it's been like,a month since i last updated this blog?

ok so i had been busy (lah sangat),and i have nothing to write about actually.the new semester is kinda,well,too plain for my liking.nothing much.i guess i've changed quite a bit this semester (sem last lah katakan).in narrower view i think i've become more 'rajin'.in sense that i finished my tutorials on time;not a day before i supposed to hand in like what i used to do for like what the previous 4 semesters?I actually studied for quizzes;since no leaked qs are available this sem.and burning the midnight oil?to be honest its more like like studying until 2 and going online until morn.HA HA ==

its already the mid semester exam fever.yesterday was calculus 2/maths 4.depressing sorta.well whatever.i've tried my best?and for post-depression remedy I watched Up.Fine I'm late.So what?

all in all it was a good watch.really sweet,I almost suffer from severe toothache.teehee.Carl Fredicksen is so not handsome,but I'd love to have someone like him for a husband.I mean,flying the house to south america just to move it there because its your late wife's lifetime dream?It is so ridiculous,it's heartwarming.

Dream husband,when he's old lah.Supposedly Jinki would look like this?ehehe.

and Dug is uber cute.can i have him as a pet puppy,please *__*

"I do not like the cone of shame."

needs to finish the chemistry lab report.sighs.

Disclaimer:does not own the pictures and characters mentioned ~~but would be too happy to own dubu.~~

baby baby.

2009-10-22T13:28:00.008+08:00

i definitely have fallen for this guy.

i mean,anyone who can pull off a neyo,a john mayer,a michael buble or a chris martin definitely deserves cookies from me.hehs.
hey,at least i picked someone my own age ;p

.

2009-10-21T14:25:00.004+08:00

my vampie pyokk hae,eating eyeballs.
;)))

dark blue,dark blue.

2009-10-21T13:19:00.004+08:00

i got my purple contour coke glass,finally.
haha.
i was no mood for mcd actually,but since this week's glass is in purple,tee hee.
a purple freak i'll always be :D

anyhoo,i cracked myself up hard the whole time watching this.
i mean,what on earth are you talking about dudes?
pardon me it's in korean,but fantastic?elastic?what do you mean??i mean,what does that elastic refers to???*rotflmao*
i was almost expecting to hear plastic somewhere,but it didn't come out.thankfully(?)
however,despite the inappropriate -tic rhymes in it i do find the song fun.ny.no no i do enjoy the song.somewhat yes i do.
and i can't bring myself to ogle these kids though.they were..okay.but eye-candying them makes me feel like a child molester.okay that was so exaggerating =="
but taemin is cute :o and minho is..cool?minho,would you ditch donghae-hyung for me,for noona,minho?would you?
hahaha.what the fugg.
so much of feeling like a child molester *rolls eyes*

results for semester 1 09/10 will be out soon.soon.yes,soon.indescribable,what i'm feeling right now.totally inexplicable.sighs.

. . .

off to dodong song to make myself feel better.hee

:D

sick muse.

2009-10-20T01:25:00.008+08:00

another week to go before new semester starts.

excited?no.anxious?i can't comprehend for what.thrilled???i don't think so.
oh well it'll be just a few more days to settle my feelings towards this matter.or whatever.

so later in the evening i watched this series korean ghost stories,basically about ghost stories in korea,well you get the idea.and the tale was about some mystic bead that could make even the ugliest woman beautiful yada yada.omg this is so boring.anyway despite the cliche of the storyline,it surprisingly had so much to say.

lesson to be learned #1 : never,ever become a concubine.i mean,craving love from only one guy who in a way neglects you and only comes to you when he's bored with some other chick who's practically in the same shoes as you?seriously honey,i don't really see where this is heading to.

lesson to be learned #2 : never,ever,i tell you,EVER underestimate the jealousy of women.although i am obviously being classified under this population,it does surprise me how far the power of envy can take you.well,bitching can be the simplest act and yes it is considered childish.but to some extent,the results ain't going to be pretty.

lesson to be learned #3 : and what is this about beauty is only skin deep?you can be pretty,but you must also have a personality to boot to make you beautiful.yes,a total cliche.but i really do not understand why,why (regarding to this mystic bead thingamajig story) does the king skipped the first night with the girl just because she had freckles??freckles!who gives the fuck towards some frigging freckles!she's like a whole lotta prettier than me;i can assure you that,believe me on this,and yes i do not have freckles.and hello,free service?

and as heavy as it is with irony,i can't help but to quote the king.

"...everyone says that a king can have anything he wants.but a king can not love only one woman,especially the one he truly loves."
(or some sort.maybe i added some flowery details,but yeah it goes in circles)

actually i was like,mehhhhh.how sweet!yeah.to have a king who can have as many women as he pleased to call his own,to actually say this.i wonder if this can be applied to the society nowadays.hm.

so much of a ghost story.more like a tragic love story,to be exact.with lots of gore.

. . .

oh && look what I've found.
cute.and of course i am jealous.duh?
(but not as jealous as the ariel lin's,because in this they broke up?bwahaha!)
at first i was thinking,nahhh,hae wouldn't go for this girl,she looks too old for him.pretty,very,but yeah.
then i found out that she's an 89-er.like,bwoh??????? o_o
heck hae looks younger than her!or so i thought.
by the way,i don't really get the mv.
so they broke up in the end?and why did they broke up?why is that girl looks so berserah??why do you look so berserah when you had to broke up with lee donghae??it's lee donghae!tell me?!
haha.okay.stop being what the effer =="

actually,the truth behind the story is..

the prince of all fishes : yobosayo.yahh,how's my jagiya?
is thankful she's not a fish : oppa.stop fooling around with jang ri in-sshi.bring your ass back home immediately!
the prince of all fishes : eheh*sheepish laugh*how d'you know who i'm with?
is thankful she's not a fish : it's all over the media?like duh?
the prince of all fishes : oh really?ehehehe*sheepish yet cute laugh,again*
is thankful she's not a fish : oppa nappa.you said i'm your one and only *pouts*
the prince of all fishes : acee-sshi,of course you're my one and only.always were and always will be.
is thankful she's not a fish : sweet talk.men and their sugar-coated lies.
the prince of all fishes : that's why i'm your sweetest drug baby*winks*

HAHA CRAPTALK AT 3 IN THE MORNING!YOU DEFINITELY CAN'T BLAME ME!*evil laughs*

be it hugh jackman,josh hartnett,shia,top,james mcavoy and even kim bum,they failed aimlessly to kick hae off the spot.haish.

well,enough junkpost for now.the brain needs a rest from all these craploads.

:D

100th.

2009-10-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

it's the 100th post people!
woot woot!

wow.some people can manage a 300th post in just a year but it took me like 3 years to reach 100?tsk tsk.guilty as charge for being a pemalas acee :*)

i'll keep on with this blog,whether there are readers or no readers,I WILL BE A DEVOTED ASAM ADDICT TILL THE END.haha.i don't know for how long,but i'd love to see how far it will go on.do you get me?because i don't really quite get it myself.ha ha =="

;)

don't know if i should hate you or miss you.

2009-10-02T13:37:00.008+08:00

finally,sem 1 for the 09/10 session has ended.
yes,FINALLY.

so what are the highlights for this semester?

1.i had what i can say the i.l.i. which made me keep in mind that i never,ever want to fall sick again.seksa gila,tahu tak?

2.which happened to be after midbreak,and yes,my midsems flunked BIG time.

3.tapi dah kira2 campur CAM and finals,i guess i'll pass.insyaAllah.wait,is this something to be highlighted?hm.

4.2 of my dearies,amal and hanum have gone to us and poland for further studies.and dearies raf n lyn too.medic people,whoa.all the best loves ;))

5.diskoe was what i can say a success.the hall was filled with people,some of us didn't really expect people coming (inc me).HAHA. =="

6.voyage is postponed to next semester.no comment.

7.my affection,well it comes and goes.doesn't it always?

8.the hostel felt that impact from the earthquake.not really sure which,the sumatera's i guess.samoa's is just too..far?

9.i've been fined for the first time for coming back to the campus late.it was not that late,but ~~fuck~~ ~~hell~~ thanks to the guards on duty.

to sum up,it was far less the same with the previous'.nothing that much,nothing too less.though i do feel it ended up far too quickly.whatever.i have to endure another 4 months and bye2 cfs.huargh.

oh yeah.finals.did i mention this is like the craziest finals ever?right after raya,i tell you.harapan lah kan waktu raya belajar untuk exam,even if it was for finals.i managed to pull it off,although i'm not really sure myself of what i'm trying to say here,hm.i survived,happily too.although the last 3 papers were like shit.haha.i'm just too golly to get my ass back home.whee~

nothing much home,really.just craving for the feeling of staying home doing nothing without having to be guilty of not doing things i'm supposed to (studying,to be exact).

and this really got me excited.

just right when i decided to buy a laptop.but laptops can wait.them,on the other hand,obviously dont.geddit?

;D

at least out loud i wont say i'm in love :)

2009-09-15T21:39:00.007+08:00

i love the singing sculptures
they are so cool :D

but if i'm in her shoes it'd be super annoying
yes,to have singing sculptures bugging you that you're in love while you're at your best at denying it
not only it is irritating,it is also scary.mind you.i prefer to hear disembodied voices telling me to get a life rather than to hear statues trying to make me confess that i'm all over,uh,whoever for that matter.
...
ok maybe neither.

it's too cliche,i wont say i'm in love.

(:

sweetest drug.

2009-09-15T00:52:00.004+08:00

oh my super ~~girl~~ man wo shi ni de super ~~man~~ girl ;D

geng is a total weirdo
bajet clark kent turns superman lah kononnya
nasib baik last2 boleh tahan hot dia
oh and that snsd girl,she's bearable.
since she's nowhere near hae
haha!gila psychotic aku ni =="

shooper shooper,shorry shorry
sangatlah tidak memahami kenapa aku masih melayan
i need to stop (and for how many times i've actually said this?)
someone,please,at least put me on probation or something
and the offense is for being too addicted?hm.
sighs.

amusing much.

2009-09-14T03:52:00.019+08:00

since it's 3 o'clock in the morning and i have nothing else better to do (on the internet),i chatted with my new 'friend' peter,and we had a pleasantly interesting yet disturbing conversation.anyhow the conference went as the following :

interesting,no?i find these kind of things entertaining.to actually state that i will marry donghae.i love you peter!haha.

p/s : to any jo bro fans out there who came across this,i'm really sorry.i have nothing against them,but peter somehow make it like it.i love lovebug,i really do!huhu

...

the lots who know the thing behind this,yes,i sound delusional,i know.you can't blame me for being bored,can you?hee

:D

i need to put an end to this.

2009-09-12T21:26:00.008+08:00

seriously,i need to put an end to this!!!

for countless times i've said it to myself that this is a total waste of time and a total waste of post entry and yes i admit it,it really is.

but this???????

holy f!!

okay maybe i am ~~a bit~~ exaggerating ~~a little~~ ~~too much~~ ? yes people ignorant as i can be being dq is one of my hidden talents (drama queen,that is,not darul quran-er,which of course most people can't relate me with that.hm)

i have nothing against m version,but yeah,korean is more preferable.i mean,for once say super instead of shuper?ok fine whatever.i like it anyways.i'll decide on love this monday.hehs.

and with that shuper amount of hotness,who cares if its mandarin or korean or japanese or javanese(?) well maybe most of you would find them gay but hell why should i care if they are gay or no gay nor gay-looking?they're gay,i'm not.obviously.

i can hear different similar voices inside my head telling,'udah2 la tu acee.' but i can't.how can i tolerate these?~~tell me how can i not stare with hae's arms like that~~ O.O

...
ok just ignore that last statement.

i should,yes,really should stop babbling over unconventional matters.i'll give better and more resourceful posts after this ok?i'll try.yes,try my best.and yes too in trying my best studying for finals.yoshh acee,gammbarre..!! o(^o^)o

ehehs ;D

cappuccino cappuccino what the eff???

2009-08-21T18:44:00.008+08:00

sumpah.comel.nak.mati.

and they are like,what,in their mid twenties?
well actually no kyu is like 2 years older than me and hae is 4 years older (not korean age) :D
whatever.the conclusion is they're frickin',ugh,undescribable.
how come no one stops to buy those facial cleansers (i suppose that's what they are) when both of them are promoting it??!well mind the girl there i have no idea who she is anyway.huahua.
i mean well yeah happy bubble for a product name is kinda,er,well you get the idea,but damn hae n kyu la weyy.nampak sangat tak logik.kalau aku dah lama bertenggek 2 jam.ngaaaha :p

yes people i'm a pathetic loser who still goes ga ga over people i know i'll never have a chance on,yang nak gila2 pun xde makna.but hell who cares :)

though rumour has it that suju,suju,suju yes suju! probably will go super show in malaysia.you dont even have to ask,of course i'm GOING at all cost.this just proves how fanatic a fangirl i can be.but yes once again who the hell cares? :D

nearly 4 weeks of silence and all i can do is fan-ramble?sheesh.yeah maybe i should listen to hanum regarding on filling my blog 'dengan pengisian yang lebih bermakna'.hm.oh well i'll update later.hae is just too adorable to resist.teehee.

oh yeah,happy ramadhan el-mubarak ppl.to all muslims,hope we can increase our ibadah and devote ourselves to Allah s.w.t while we can.this may be our last ramadhan.don't let it pass without fully embracing it :)

:D

won't someone stop this train? part II

2009-07-26T11:11:00.011+08:00

my one week of solace has finally coming to an end.

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! ToT

so not wanting go back to pj.
sangatlah tak bersedia dengan apa yang menanti di uia nanti
(classes,extra classes,quizzes,tutorials,individual speaking test,timed-in-class essay,fim assignment,MIDSEM EXAM,diskoe and voyage)

NOOOOOOOO......!!!!!!!!!! T^T

*sniffles sniffles sniffles*

the last matter is the one that has been bugging me mostly.for so many reasons.ugh.not going to mention it ==."

come to think of it,there's not even a single positive thing to look forward to in pj.lainlah kan kalau everyday boleh keluar.there are tons of places to go.cfs is like in the center of every hotspots in kl.just name it.i guarantee the tranportation costs less than rm10.sadly i'm stuck in it.stupid uia rules.

i don't even have a bf there to look forward to seeing,nevertheless a crush.no even if i have a crush (or crushes?) i won't look forward to see him (them?) either.why's that so?i wont mention here either ^^

unless james mcavoy decides to stop acting and comes to uia kicking my current lecturer away,teaching me writing and reading instead.damn if that ever happens,every attendance will be full,i'll even attend all his classes i'm not in.i'll make stupid grammar mistakes for his personal consultation.and i wont even try to hide from him in class (bak kata the current lecturer,i always seem to be hiding from her.well when you sit at the last and the end of the row,you really can't blame her for accusing right?teehee),i'll sit beside dayat if i have to (fyi,he usually sits infront of the teacher's desk,explains why his name is used.haha.)

imagine him being your english lecturer.sighs.

yes i've just watched penelope yesterday and it seems that the jamesmcavoy virus attacked again after disappearing for like a year or so.i think i'm liking him better than shia.so peeps,you may take shia.i'll have doses of johnny martin for the moment (although suju's is still empowering.i find that it is somehow undestructable and cannot be cured.hm).any movies,i may say.well maybe minus mr.tumnus,he's a little too..hairy?hm.

sir mcavoy : *scans practice essay* why are you agreeing with the opponent's view?
aci : eh?i did?
sir mcavoy : yes in this line *shows sentence*.you're not supposed to agree with the opponents view.this is your stand and you must fight for your own view.
aci : oh..okay..? *fidgeting fidgeting*
sir mcavoy : *reads the passage again and gives an unsatisfying look* why did you agree with the opponent's view??
aci : er..um..it was accidental? *with a supposed-to-be-innocent look*
sir mcavoy : accident ah?aiyooo.go go.take the essay away.
aci : *takes essay* thank you sir..ha..ha..ha..
sir mcavoy : wait before you go give me a kiss.
aci : *reluctant look* if i give you a kiss then you'll give me extra marks?
sir mcavoy : sure.i'll even treat you dinner.and even a kiss back *winks*.
aci : *without thinking much* okay. *kiss*
sir mcavoy : *kiss*

note:this came out as pure imagination but based on a true event.the lecturer role is changed.and the last 5 dialogues is completely fictional.i won't kiss my lecturers even if they offer bribe marks,especially this one.ew.i don't even want her to treat me dinner.i rather spend 100 for dinner alone than eating with her.that's just too creepy to imagine.

bodola acee jangan berangan benda merepek2 pls?haish.

this is if only la kan.it won't happen even if cats start talking and invade the world.if it really does (jamesmcavoy being my lecturer,i mean) i'll shoot myself just to know i'm not dreaming.haha.ok hyperbol =="

tak nak balik pj ;(

calculus love?

2009-07-24T10:40:00.000+08:00

via jaredm → andrewcmyk

this may be true to some extent,however..

2009-07-24T10:34:00.002+08:00

via scott garner

how can i when the one in my head is much more irresistible? :o

akibat kulat2 dalam fridge.

2009-07-23T12:22:00.003+08:00

theorem relativity.

2009-07-23T09:08:00.003+08:00

via missmlady

and why do i never came across this in any physics text books?

reminding myself.

2009-07-23T09:00:00.005+08:00

via remindyourself

tabur bintang serupa kilau auramu

2009-07-20T12:44:00.003+08:00

for some strange and unknown reasons,a sudden image of a particular someone pops into my head every time i hear this.

and also this.

don't ask me why,because all i can do is deny :)

geojinmal?

2009-07-19T21:35:00.005+08:00

funny.

i felt that a moment ago i have so much to say.

but at this moment i feel like i don't think any words can describe how i feel.

i just want to state this question :

i've always call you a good friend.but do you ever considered me yours?

if you do,how could you say that we are never true friends of yours?how could you say I was never a true friend of yours.or all this while i was making my own assumptions?

if you don't,then i have nothing more to say.

memories will be left as memories.that's all i can say.sorry if we're wrong.sorry if we're not what you expected.sorry for not being good enough for you.sorry for being only funny to you.

and sorry if you have to read this.for the one and only you,and for the ones who have no relations whatsoever to this matter.i realized that this is so emo you should sue.

i promise this will be the last post i'll ever mention this.i promise i'll get back to suju (or anything for this matter) after this.

bye.

sexy back.

2009-07-12T14:10:00.004+08:00

or is it sexy backs?

or sexyss are back?(ada ke sexys?memandai je.sexy ada plural form ke?bukan dea adjective ke.ok jangan madam beena sangat.)

whatever.the most important thing is,hae's back IS sexy.
super sexy,mind you.
they should be in a group called super sexy instead of super junior.i mean,c'mon,you can be forever sexy,but you can't be forever junior.

. . .
ok that is so absurd and pointless.

but seriously,if i were to be one of those in the front row,i'd be totally dumbfounded.watch hae striptease and not able to do anything?serious offence.i'd do anything to touch his back.

acee,stop being a pervert.

and the part with the ~~sluts~~ ~~bitches~~ whores? i can't decide which word is more appropriate,tak perlu la kan sebenarnya.patutlah most of the vids duration is only 6 mins,tetiba yang ni 7 something.haha.no one really want to see you ~~slutsbitcheswhores~~ ?.

maybe i should try to stop myself from infesting this blog with meaningless fangirl ramblings.start talking about current issues ke.
ha.speaking of which.due to the ppsmi issue.really,i don't get it with the government.can't you just continue what you've just started?why waste so much money for about 6 years and suddenly you put a stop on it because there's so many objections (for 6 years,mind you.nape tak stop je for the second year or something.mengarutlahh) really need a strong stand right?ok fine.i'm not in the government or something.but the funny thing is,the ones who are questioning these ppsmi ~~crap~~issue are grownups.tak pernahlah pulak kan aku nampak a student jump out of nowhere in those forums and debates discussing this matter mengamuk2,fighting reasons of why they should or should not learn science and maths in english.cubala tanya batch kitorang ni yang kena jadi bahan eksperimen.and one of the reason is,nanti bm dilupakan.hellooooo.i learned science and maths in english and i got A1 for my bm and B3 for all my science subjects.language is not really a barrier for learning technical subjects la wey.as long as you understand the facts,it won't be much problem.science subjects aku memang hampeh pun.sebab tu la result pun macam hampeh.ada je orang yang x reti english2 tapi dalam slip results maths and sciences dorg hebat nak mampus.haih.whatever.i'm just giving opinions.nothing much to do about it anyway.

ok ppsmi matter sangatlah tak masuk dengan tajuk.but whatever.huhu.and suddenly this becomes a long post.sebenarnya nak bebel pasal sexy hae je.teehee.
kalau nak complain punya la semangat.cuba suruh differentiate an implicit function ke.buat full discussion untuk chem lab ala2 lab report budak2 medcy.haa kau.maw tercungap.

hae IS sexy :D

jealousy,turning saints into the sea.....

2009-07-03T19:19:00.004+08:00

T^T

that's all that i can say

T^T

nk lentok2 atas bahu hae jgakkkkk :(((((((

and your voice was all i heard.

2009-06-28T18:24:00.008+08:00

yes people,i've watched transformers! :D

and personally i find it really cool.i mean,i think my eyes didnt even blink for a second (well,cm tipula kan x blink),and for the fact i was in the third row,debaran mmg dapat dirasakanla.hehs.

well practically i was pretty much amazed throughout the whole movie (i was gaping,seriously),i only realized the flaws when my sister pointed it out,which was during lunch,an hour after the movie.haha.but then it's probably whatever.i enjoyed it anyway.the effects were superb!but yeah i do think those sam+mikaela moments are absolutely unnecessary.this does not come from utter jealousy,mind you.the movie is better off without those iloveyoubutidontwannaadmittellmefirstthenilltellyou shit.oh well.i guess it is envy :p

i'll give it a rating of 4/5.why minus 1?the reason is mostly because megan fox is shia's beau.haha.

anyways,the coolest guy in the movie is of course,optimus prime.i'd ditch suju anyday for optimus (suju?mne dtg suju pulak nehhh.adoyaiiiii)

. . .

or perhaps.maybe not.haha =="

shattered dreams.

2009-06-28T02:15:00.004+08:00

frustrated.

trying to re-install sonicstage but turns out to be hopeless.sengal kot benda ni.tataw ape masalah.ckp nt logged in as administrator while i am.waaa...nk transfer lagu...sesungguhnya my mp3 bersawang2 sudah.uhu T___T

gonna watch transformers tomorrow :D highly anticipated.can't wait to see shia :D:D movie starts at 11.30 am,and yes here i am still awake at 2 in the morning.nasiblaa esok.i won't get sleepy if there's shia (yo yo je).hee.

and truth be told.some people just take things for granted,never learn to realise that you'll never be thankful of what you got till its gone.so now i'm bidding farewell,for real.we had enough of your antics.go on with your life.hopefully i wont get involved in it again.and i wont regret it.it's your loss,not mine.

. . .

sighs.whatever.nak berdrama2 (?) pulak pagi2 bute ni.hm.nk transfer lagu! ;((((

been here all along so why can't you see?

2009-06-27T20:17:00.003+08:00

corny,i know.

but lucas till is so effing damn hottttt

gahhhhhhh O.O

and this song is dedicated to...?eh..probably no one you should know :)

i guess i'm just a fool with my eyes only for you

2009-06-27T10:19:00.003+08:00

am all cair and ooey gooey...
damn

so beat it.

2009-06-26T22:27:00.003+08:00

the most shocking news for today,obviously,is MJ's death.

but really what struck me the most is that,last night you're not alone was on air and i was singing my heart out,dok bsg2 dgn sher n alyaa psl it is my most fav mj's (and not to mention that teka-teki,which somehow made me feel guilty about making it up right now.hm).not to mention that madam nora talked about man in the mirror in yesterday's listening speaking class.

so i was clueless about the news until i heard the salespeople in nose bising2 psl the death.no wonder la kn time kt dlm cab td kt radio dok psg lg2 mj memanjang.i was like okay xla fikir sgt until i received a msg from a makcik yg sgtla x reti nk diam

acee,smlm hang dok melalak2 lg mj..pg td dea da mnggl..scary..

bongok pnye alyaa.i dont need remindings.dhla tajuk lagu pn you're not alone.urgh.

and so i was thinking how funny suddenly some moments in your life can be interrelated with a tragic loss of some superstar.eh.i dont think i get my words out right.but you get the picture.

al-fatihah towards him.may you rest in peace.

tercipta untukku :)

2009-06-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

i totally love this version.

xde org ke nk dedicate lagu nh kt aku ke?hm.

oh well.pasha is love :D

sir pahsha pn comel gak except that dea target ktorg C je for calculus.bukanny nk yakin ktorg dpt A pn.hampeh.

ok tetbe psl sir pahsha.hee.

. . .

:*D

all i wanna do is find a way back into love

2009-06-26T20:57:00.003+08:00

love the piano
love kyu
love hae

. . .

well,especially hae :D

i miss you,i miss you,more than the stars in the night.

2009-06-19T23:14:00.006+08:00

the feeling that i hate most.

looking back,and looking at myself now,seeing not that much difference,but realising that i'm totally different from what i used to be.

yes i do have personality issues.trying to be myself,but actually living my life on other people's expectations,trying to prove that i'm not what they think,but in the end the me myself is relying on other's expectations.

fuck i have no idea what am i rambling on anyways.

the point is,the urge to run away to a place that no one knows me is too overwhelming.in need to be invisible.but also in need of someone to actually see me.

seeing so many people.seeing none noticing me.

caring about too many people.caring not to care that so few really cares.

ignoring so that i wont get hurt again.ignoring the fact that i'm hurting just to save my own ass.and how it hurts when it backfires.

. . .

yeah and its just me being all emo again.just need some reality check.huargh.

aitakute,aitakute.from new favvie,mei-chan :)

i'm just a singer,you're the world.

2009-06-06T18:56:00.002+08:00

another tag from myla~

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
-old yellow bricks

YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
-steps to stop

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
-driftwood

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
-hero

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
-hanging by a moment

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
-is it you

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
-suddenly i see

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
-brianstorm

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
-why georgia

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
-fernando pando

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
-beautiful lie

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
-memory

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
-neorago :D

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
-i know i know i know

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
-love is colder than death

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
-terima kasih cinta

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
-a love song for no one

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
-stars

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
-sour cherry

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
-mirror

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
-special

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
-bella luna

sonicstage ;(

marry u,marry me,marry who?but anyways,i do ;)

2009-06-06T18:21:00.002+08:00

tag from myla~

1. How old are you?
-19

2. Are you single?
-yup

3. At what age do you think you’ll get married?
-eh?not sure

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
-jodoh di tgn tuhan :p

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
-anyone suju.or kimbum.HAHAHA! :p

6. Who will be your bridesmaid or your bestman?
-x fikir lg.huahua

7. Do you want a garden/ beach or traditional wedding?
-garden :)

8. Where do you plan to go for honeymoon?
-all around the world (gle x bajet.haha)

9. How many guest do you think you’ll invite?
-ramai kot

10. Will that include your exes?
-insyaAllah :p

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
-satu sudah.aku sorg je mn.ngaha! :p

12. When do you want to get married? Morning or evening?
-somewhere in between

13. Name the song/tune you would like to play at your wedding?
-marry u.that is if i marry anyone suju.hahahaha :p

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon/fork/ knife?
-gne tgn sudah.haha

15. Champagne of red wine?
-air mineral :p

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
-days after?

17. Money or household items?
-a ferrari. :p

18. How many kids would you like to have?
-xnk bnyk

19. Will your record your honeymoon in DVD and CD?
-uh..um..haha.

20. I want to know their wedding plan
-you ;)

p/s: sryla,jwpn bnyk mengarut2.just so you know,marriage is like wayyyyy in the bottom of my daydreaming list.hehs.

love love love

2009-06-06T17:57:00.002+08:00

tag from intan~

Do you like to talk a lot?
-well it depends.

Do you hate being scolded in public?
-kinda

Do you feel like having a bf right now?
-nahh

Do you prefer calling? or sms?
-depends

Do you want to cry now?
-no

What are you doing now?
-this

What are you thinking of now?
-uhh...

What are you listening to now?
-me typing

Who was the last person who sent you a message?
-pok

Last time someone made you happy?
-few minutes ago.haha

Guitar or drum?
-guitar

Do you love the people who make you happy?
-of coursela wey

Do you believe in those people?
-well i do have doubts

What is your target this year?
-survive cfs?

Do you rather shop alone or with people?
-alone

Who do you hate now?
-no one

Who are your best friends?
-my best friends

Who are you missing now?
-whoever i'm missing

What can you say about your ex-bf/ex-gf?
-what do u want me to say?

If you are single, are you enjoying it?
-hell yeah

Do you think your ex really loved you?
-i'm so sorry but i love but hey,its all lies :p

The most important thing in a relationship?
-pass.

Name an opposite sex you like to see everyday?
-anyone suju.HAHA! :p

You're in love with that person?
-musti :D

Is it easy to make you cry?
-oh well.depends.

I bet you're thinking about someone right now?
-no?

What are you doing tomorrow night?
-tdo

Are you taller than your mom?
-nope

What are you planning on doing after this?
-tags again

Lose a best friend lately?
-not sure

How many months until your birthday?
-8

Do you like Beyonce's new song If I Were a Boy?
-uh.dh lama kot lg tuh

Who was your last missed call from?
-abah

Why didnt you answer?
-fon dlm bilik

What was the last thing you spent your money on?
-yestrdays breakfast

photofunnnnnnnia~! xD

2009-05-28T20:38:00.003+08:00

this is so effing cool!!!!

i was doing my usual stuff online (well you can just guess what it was anyway) when i discovered it.sgt menarek ok?unless you dont see things the way i see things (well nk berlapik sbnrny nh.act nk ckp its either u membosankan or i mmg gle.haha!) then ok fine.*emo*
ok apahal =="

and all the credits goes to eeteuk-sshi.yes ppl.ALL OF THEM!!!
teukkieiloveyousodamnmuchurmylivesaverfrommyworthlessdaysnnightsinthistwoweekstime~~!
yes i can imagine ppl throwing rotten tomatoes at me and screaming crazy bitch.
*sighs*

like he'd ever read what i'm saying.rly envious of those ufo-ppl ==

although i personally think that my pic up there really looks like some goofy maniac being so happy being wanted dead or alive.(pendek kata,mcm pesakit tjg rambutan terlepas.huahua)

^^v

desolation row.

2009-05-26T21:43:00.006+08:00

finally i managed to get my lazy ass off and start to work on that finding-manufacture-mechatronic-whatever-based-company-phone-numbers-thingy whatnot whatnot.

which was assigned last last saturday.but well atleast i started on it 5 days before new sem starts compared to the usual which i'll eventually find the importance of putting my fingers together on actually typing on the search engine or whatever one day before it is supposed to be presented.yes i'm in guilt of heavy procrastinating.pardon me =_="

so luckily i found a webbie with search directories for those companies in need.a list of 466 pages all of them.and i need only two.which actually should be easy for me.sadly no.first 2 pages sme luar selangor.haa bnyk duetla kn nk g travel jauh2.

kinda frustrated (br 2 pages dh poyo nk frust2).off to csi ny.phone numbers can wait.flack doesnt.haha wtf.

but then recap next epi shows flack smooching angell.ugh.devastatinggggggg ~(

dgn sedih hatinya mncari lg nombor2 nh.berjaya akhirny.hoyeahhhh!tinggal that build-up-40-qs-to-ask-whoever whoever.itu..uh..well...urm..hahahaha..ha..later? **D

man,seriously.why on earth do they put me as a person in charge anyway??gle ape.normally people would mistaken me as an anti-social.no.my previous english lecturer had already labelled me as a sociopath.sighs.

really hope no one involved will read this.haha.mati aku.

but well,i guess i should try my best kn?be more responsible.hm.

whatever.this is getting boring.
decided to put in my thoughts instead of those 'thoughts' on youtube but i guess it just turned out to be merely complaints.

haha.pape jelaa.blog aku weyy.

. . .

okay now i'm offbeat again.believing that i'm actually talking to someone.

. . .

staying home for too long can be mental threatening to some people can it. =="

my favourite kindaichi :D

2009-05-23T23:02:00.005+08:00

oh oh n yes he's my fav domyouji too :DD (tho minho is obviously wayyyy much hotter but hell jun rox my sox!! %D)

and for some weird reason jun somehow looks like aznil O_o

this blog is slowly turning into some random fansite.haih =="

only for me,only for me :D

2009-05-17T05:28:00.002+08:00

just what i needed after a tiring end-of-sem day
(studied for maths,cant sleep,slept nearly 4 or so,cramps,maths 2 finals,cramps,meeting,packing,carried luggage to car,headache and yes,cramps)

this is the dance version.sukar utk memilihny.wahaha! :D

groovy baby its almost the weekend! %D

2009-05-08T04:23:00.002+08:00

another tag from ms intan salme omar.miss u babe ;)

A - Available?
only for those i'd make myself available for.hehs

B - Birthday?
21/2/90

C - Last cigarette you smoke?
nvr?

D - Drink you last had?
air kosong

E - Easiest person to talk to?
those ppl

F - Favorite color?
purple :)

G - Gummy bears or gummy worms?
idk.arent they more less the same?

H - Home town?
klang!

I- In deep thought?
of cz not

J- just got out of a relationship?
nah

K- Killed someone?
well.no?

L - Lime or lemon?
lemon lime :D

M- Money or love?
sufficient amount of both

N - Number of siblings?
4

O - One wish
too many i cant pick one

P - Person you last commented?
mun kot

Q - Quiet?
with the fact that its already half past 4 in the morn n i'm the only one awake,yes.

R - Reason you smiled?
just thoughts :)

S - Song you last heard
U

T- Time you woke up today?
9.30 9.45 somewhere there.haha

U - u happy?
so so

V- Vegetarian?
nope

W -Worst habit?
am a lazy bum ;p

X - Last X-GF/bf?
johnny depp.i ditched him because of kimbum.AS IF. B)

Y - Yogurt flavor?
tropical marigold i used to buy from koop ssp.huhu

Z - Zodiac sign?
pisces

and all i need is a good night sleep.or is it morning?hm.

just another game of tag :)

2009-05-07T16:54:00.003+08:00

Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
cz this is an aproved pic to be published by the person bermke scary dlm gamba nh :D

Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
minggu lepas.

Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
sepohon kayu.haha.no2.x igt.

Apa yang anda buat selain selesaikan tag ini?

an evening nap,maybe :D

Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan panggilan apa?

definitely bukan kambing.haih.

Tag lagi 6 orang soalan seterusnya ada kaitan dengan orang yang anda tag!
saira dahlia
jujue
myl
meez
kintan
alyaa ali

Siapa No.1 pada anda?
kakanda yg disygi :)))

Org No.3 ada hubungan dengan sesiapa?
entahla dea.haha! :p

Kata sesuatu berkenaan orang N0.5?
kintanun! :D

Bagaimana dengan orang No.4?
kembar tersesat

Siapa orang N0.2?
one of the 3 musketeers :))

Bagi pesanan pada orang No.6?
anda maseh presiden kelab.jgn lupa itu! ;ppp

you ver. 2 :)

2009-05-02T04:30:00.006+08:00

bak kata myla aku senang terpangaruh.
but you definitely can't blame me....!!!!!! :O:O:O
yes somehow its as if i'm easily deceived by pretty guys
but hey maybe this wouldn't apply to the real situation ayte?
lainlah kan if the real situation does involve kim bum sshi
:*D

sorry sorry,revisited.

2009-04-05T02:31:00.000+08:00

seems that i just cant get enough of them.
<3333333

yes you and you and you

2009-04-01T23:34:00.004+08:00

am using najwa's lappie
seriously in no mood of doing maths
disebabkan sekrg maths dh everyday,therefore evryday la kn aku kena menghadap maths
waaaaaaaaa
haih.tp bearable la jgak.since dh lali la jgak kn the lecturer.
oops :D

its already been a week and a half since short sem started
so far?as i said before,maths is like everyday
nasib madam x jd buat that extra 4 hours
kalau x.well.bayangkanlah sendiri
huhu

oh and my new room AC103
depan previous room je
mmg agak menyakitkan hati
baik xyah nk angkut segala benda balikla kn
old roomies,plus another 4 new ones
oklaa.the room is quite spacious.but i dont know why.since new sem susah gle weyh nk bangun.comfie sgt ke?eventho panas pn tdo sedap gle.x faham.

practically i'm just plain bored.teringin gle nk on9 (mcm x pernah on9 seumur hidup je)
huahua
nothing much to say
ttyl~ :D

won't someone stop this train?

2009-03-21T11:01:00.003+08:00

in no mood whatsoever to balik campus.
haih.

happily never after

2009-03-19T17:02:00.005+08:00

i decided to take my mind off the previous issue for a bit

and i found something that actually make me feel a bit better or so i thought yeah whatever

finally i found which episode this scene is in
and how sad it may seem but the way to actually distract me is by watching some pretty guy got drenched in the rain?
but hell yeah you can't blame archibald anyways
<3>his eyes *_*

wahai uia yang ku kagumi,sayangi dan rindui

2009-03-19T16:17:00.004+08:00

kenapa tak nak post result aku???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~bangang.~~
setahu aku x penah kena saman lagi la kan.
eeeee...!!
cuak gila ~~babi babi~~ pn tak cuak cani taw x???????
argh!
Feel U T^T

yes somehow obviously i am trying my best to watch my words
but seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
blame it on kesurupan bongok
dhla andhika pratama mati
*merobek2 segala apa yg ada di kepala*
~x@

life couldn't get better,hey! :D

2009-03-14T19:47:00.002+08:00

ok sekarang tengah sgt pening gara2 tengok benda alah ni.
sumpah rasa nk muntah.
mula2 tgk sekali macam waa agak teruja so tgkla lagi sekali.
then i went to another vid similar to it
tgh tggu loading semua adela keluar perkataan2 seperti berikut

warning:do not watch this repeatedly over a short space of time

bongok punya other vid
kasi warning awal2 boleh tak
urgh
benci
dhla tgh cramping
haih

earlier this morning i came through this that surely made my day! :D
i've been waiting for this to be aired since like foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
ok.xlah forever kn sebenarnya.
hee.

one word : sizzling.
bak hot plate yee mee di kafe zc
wtf acee???
too bad there's not much heenim n kibummie
but then while they're at it,sgt memuaskan hati.
therefore i've nothing much to complain ^__^

wheee suju wheee %))))

but i love you everyday (:

2009-03-08T22:32:00.004+08:00

shorry (4x)
busyuk(3x)

hahahahahahahahhahahaha wtf gleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xD

i keep playing this over and over again
ocd?maybe.
or maybe i'm already addicted.
or maybe they look....?
*fangirl scream* xD

ok.abaikan.

although shorry shorry shorry shorry might be a little,whaaaaat......?ok banyak mungkin.haha.
but it's addictive! :D

shorry shorry shorry shorry xD xD xD xD

magick.

2009-03-05T16:08:00.004+08:00

2nd sem ended on tuesday

ngehhhhh

last paper was physics.ok,i guess.not as mind blowing as midsem's.tapi soal betul ke x tu hanya examiner yang taw.main jawab je.janji jawab semua.

to sum up,2nd sem was better than the 1st.i passed all my cams..kot.x tgk pon chem pnye.mcm takut melemahkn smgt?however finals was quite oklah.hm.n there was festiven.which my bureau was banned during post mortem.which i didnt go.which i couldnt care less?whatever.n i do feel that 2nd sem flies fast.rse mcm baru je kot start sem.masuk kelas pn mcm ttw belajar ape sbnrnya.whatever pun,2nd sem sangat mencabar,physically and emotionally.physically as in,mahallah aishah tu hujung x igt dunia.rse mcm hiking pn ade.dhla bangunan pelik.rseny kalau buat explorace cari blek mmg kne sediakan hadiah lumayan.huh.emotionally pula,panjanglah cerita kan.which i prefer not to bring up anything.huahuahuahua.

now i'm waiting for results.sem break for 2 weeks n ++ days.then short shem starts on the 23rd.i'll be taking com 1,maths 2 n physics lab.hoping that,i do not repeat any papers.insyaAllah...... =_=

that's all for now.nk sidai kain walaupun hujan?hehs.

currently watching : rainbow romance yg tah pape tapi layan je lah kan nk buat ape lagi.heeee :D

star light,star bright.

2009-02-15T17:12:00.003+08:00

not a fan of katy perry,
but,
the vid was awesome.
in my opinion.
kyle xy hot pulak dlm nh.
hua3.

oh n before i forgot,

happy becoming 19 zulaika shamin zulkupli!!!
love u lots like jelly tots (i think this usually would be your line.hee)
love you to smithereens :PPP
and yes,we are the torchbearers for the ummah...! xD

xoxo,
<3

doushite.

2009-02-14T18:17:00.004+08:00

oh its vday.

and like always,i'm not celebrating it,not because i've no one to celebrate it with,but valentines is the 'hari kejatuhan islam' (seriously,i think uia has really gotten into me).hm.

however,vday had always been an exciting day for me.since there's 7 days to go for,uhm.heee.

but then this year seems different.usually i'd go telling anyone that i could find that the 21st is 7 days to go,being uber irritating,practically bugging ppl to give me presents yada yada.

i'm starting to feel that my birthday is just practically another day that i'll turn another year older,with nothing much to expect,just realising that i'm already old enough to think for myself and trying not run from any responsibilities but to handle them..wisely?

i guess there's the part where i'm evolving into the species called adults.no fun.

but i still can have some while am it,right? :D

so yesterday i went to cineleisure to watch the curious case of benjamin button with a bunch of friends (named zatie,jiha,aini n enab).so far one of the most saddest movies i've ever seen.if i sat beside zatie instead of jiha i think we'll be crying buckets (jiha doesn't seem as innocent as she looks;enab n aini were 'distracted' by some 'other' things.poor them).a must watch movie,definitely.if you're into these drama kind of genre.but in the end all of us concluded that we all wanted to be Daisy.brad pitt 'tua' hottt siottttt.haihshhh.

oh yea before that we went to the karoke.and after.until 8.30.maybe?lost track of time.ada org tgh frust.huahua.then went back to uia around 9 or 10..nasib baek pak guard ok.curfew is at 7 on fridays and sundays unless you're by parents or transportation sendiri.miracle la kan sebenarnya pak guard tu bagi cab hantar sampai dalam.hee.

guess uia hasn't really gotten into me after all :*D

finals is next week.23rd.another dilemma.nak balik mcm takut leka.x nak balik takut dgn...erm.x nak mention.

...

riiiight.need to study acee =_="

you :)

2009-02-08T07:51:00.002+08:00

uberrrrr comelllllllllll....!!!
o(">_<")o

since KJH,i think sudah lama saya tidak berminat kepada lelaki2 bermata sepet
and another kim pulak tuh
huahuahuahua :))))))))

sorry mun
tula sape suro aku tgk ehb bnyk2 lg
heee :p

fluorescent adolescent.

2009-01-23T10:22:00.002+08:00

highlights for this week :

-end of midsem exams! :D
-end of festiven! xD
-cny holsss! %D
-oh and yes,sunway baby! BD

can't wait!
miss having fun badly x[

oh n the white flag?i think i've decided to chuck it in the trashcan.
its a win-win situation
i guess i dont need it anymore :)))

i'm in love,and always will be.

2009-01-09T21:18:00.009+08:00

i dont know where to start.

maybe i'll start off by wishing happy new year (both maal hijrah 1430 n 2009).its a tad bit late,but hey,this is my first post of the year.

hm.so life had been great.

really great,frankly speaking.i was actually enjoying being in my own skin rather than to act like a stranger to myself these days.able to find myself again.able to actually stand on my own principles again.able to believe that yes,someday i will find love,and to believe that,good things do happen to those who wait.

until four simple words were spoken.so simple,yet they burn right down to the core.

and now i'm back being lost,restless,confused,oh-so-fuckingly stupid and surprisingly...sad?
or maybe devastated is the right adjective.maybe.

obviously it was my own fault.gatal sangat nk involve balik kan.gatal sangat nk act mcm i'm some kind of an avid fan.gatal sangat to believe that,that maybe,there is still ray of hope for me.
and being so effin degil,i'm believing that there still is.

i know everything is so obvious.n everything has been planned.n everything whatsoever has nothing to do with me.

and i know myself that i've been holding the white flag right from the beginning.its just that i'm too rotten up inside to admit defeat.

i'm losing in my own game.screw me.

picture of the month

2008-12-31T02:17:00.004+08:00

the bride n the groom,beserta pengapits(yg juga merupakn adik masing2)

because i took the picture? :D

congrats sis n bro-in-law!
semoga bahagia hingga ke anak cucu.heee :D

dangg twilight..!

2008-12-10T03:37:00.001+08:00

x sabar gle wehhh...! xc

almost believing this is not pretend

2008-12-08T02:59:00.003+08:00

robert : ..and now you're beside me and look how far we've come
..so far we are so close

i want my prince edward..
tp robert pn boleh.
*sighs*

lapar,which obviously doesn't make any sense.at all.

2008-11-30T02:14:00.004+08:00

kurindu disayangi
sepenuh hati
sedalam cintaku
setulus hatiku

kuingin memiliki
kekasih hati
tanpa air mata
tanpa kesalahan

bukan cinta
yang melukai diriku
dan meninggalkan hidupku lagi

tolonglah aku
dari kehampaan ini
selamatkan cintaku
dari hancurnya hatiku
hempaskan kesendirian yang tak pernah berakhir

bebaskan aku
dari keadaan ini
sempurnakan hidupku
dari rapuhnya jiwaku
~~adakah seseorang yang melepaskanku dari kesepian ini~~

Kesepian;Dygta

sekali sekala nk jiwang.hehs ;p

tag.

2008-11-29T17:09:00.002+08:00

Tag rules.Remove one question and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. How often do you think of committing suicide?

-whenever i feel like it.which is rare.aku syg nyawa kot?

2. Do you think you have enough confidence?

-so so

3. How many babies you want?

-max 4.haha.

4. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

-erm.

5. What is your goal for this year?

-survive cfsiium

6. Do you believe in eternity love?
-bolela thn

7. What's love means to you?

-love.

8.What feeling do you love most?

-being appreciated

9. Do you love money ?

-yes i do :p

10. Is there anything you wanna tell the ppl you hate ?
-ohh u know u love me ;)))

11. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

-yes i guess so

12. What does flying means to you?

-when gravity loses its part

13. What do you crave for the most currently?

-sweet things

14. Have you ever having two or more girl/boyfriend in the same time?

-nahhh

15. Are you proud of your love??

-i dont get this.

16. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?

-ternyata :))

17. What will u become in another 10 years to come?

-Allah knows

18. What is your boyfriend/girlfriend name?

-hibari kyoya.haha! :p

19. What is your ambition?
-being a normal yet successful person

20. Choose one, married to a bitch or a gay.
-mestilah gay.i'm still straight tho.nayy bitches ;;p

&& i'll tag

jujue myla naie mizah intan alyaa

or anyone who wants to do this.
x kesah ler.huhuh.

and my affection,well it comes and goes.

2008-11-23T21:02:00.002+08:00

yes, it does.

when the truth is...?

2008-11-17T10:39:00.003+08:00

sesungguhnya aku sangat bosan.
dan buntu.
dan penat.
dan fenin dgn fizik.

my classes today are physcs II,maths n writing class.tapi madam laili mc,yg semua org(act,yg prpn je,bros x smpi lg) kena smpi kelas duduk dulu br taw kelas cancel,eventho it was obvious there was a notice on the door stated the today's class is cancelled.tapi hanim gak yg perasan.org laen dok menonong je jln.mungkin kerana semangat belajar maths yg x dpt dibendung?hee :p

basically i was bored.so trigt la kt cc.nk bkak fs tgk2 under maintenance.ms,fb,cm malas.mcm lebih complicated?whatever.therefore i decided to blog.although i'm not sure what to write,but i do feel like writing.hm.

last friday i went to that induction course,yg aku sbnrny xnk pon pergi,lbey2 lg ada explorace??? yg mmgla kn membangkitkn semangat aku (HAHA).but idk,terdapat sedikit rasa kasihan dlm diriku ini yg mmbuatkan aku pergila jgak course tu.ssh taw nk buat aku kasihan n rajin.selalunya aku mmg rasa kasihan ttp rajin tu mmg kirim slmla.
memula nk g yg opening je.pstu mcm okla aku pegi jgakla pagi esok pny.bila group discussion 1 mcm penting je utk pegi yg 2nd pny (well,act sbb azah dgn aku je dtg,mmg sadis la kn klu aku x dtg.azah bunuh aku nnt klu aku x dtg.ke dea lg suka?heee :PPP),pegila.that moment ecah,azah n i were already fenin2 pk nk g explorace ke x.memula mmg dh x nk pegi dh.since yg team b sme mcm stok2 xkn dtg je.skali sister tu g cdgkn nk balancekn.adoyai.mmg xleh escape la kn.so aku pergila memenatkn diri g explorace tu.pstu closing kenala pegi kn,alang2 dh pegi semua.in the end,my attendance was full.

frankly speaking,aku ttw nk bangga atau kesal,sbb aku beriya ckp xnk pegi,tp last2 aku pergi SEMUA.haih.

right now badan ku masih sengal2,sbb aku rs last time aku berlari2 begitu was in form 5,spm camping thingy tuh.mmg dh berzaman la kn.and during that time there's no boys to catch up with.you get the idea.aku nh mmgla kn 'juara sprint'.yea right.

tomorrow i'll be sitting for the special ept.perasaan?tiada.gementar?mungkin sedikit.bt whatever it is,i'll try my best.do pray for me! :D

and yeah.do pray that i don't get caught in my own little game.i'm feeling like it.this is serious.i might mess up.again.like always.sighs.

i think i should go study physics or something.or take a nap.thats all for now :)))

gle xde motif.and so it is :D

2008-11-14T17:31:00.004+08:00

6th day of 2nd sem.
comment?
gle penat ah
mahallah aisyah nh gle jauh dr sume tmpt.
nk g kelas,pergh.
english n arabic kt smawep
phy kt ly
maths kt annex
chem kt block e
ly n annex kre boleh thn ah dekat dea,tp ada notis mengade la plak xleh amek route bdak2 abc
alahaiiiiii
haish
tp ape aku kesah
wheee~~~ :p

classes so far,okla.
nk cmmnt bnyk2,nnt kot
kt cc,set comp nh cm agak annoying,so wtf,nnt2la
hm
mlm nh ade induction pebanda tah.gle malas
tp,hm,yela2,aku pegi
dgn baek hatinya aku dh register pn kn?

fine.aku akan berusaha mnjd anak buah yg mndgr kata ok?
terimalah daku seadanya
:D:D:D:D

to that certain someone,soryla
tp aku mmg enjoy gak ah mencibai
heeee~~ ;p

clarity.peace.serenity.

2008-11-06T14:37:00.005+08:00

i think i've fallen in love with him again.and again.and again.

sighs.

d'you know what i mean?

2008-11-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

1st of November 2008

1 month and 19 days towards k.yong's wedding

9 days towards 2nd semeseter

4 days until final results comes out

. . .

gle kentang ah. =_="

ahaks.

2008-10-31T19:55:00.004+08:00

i've finished 215 chapters in 5 days.agak gle kentang ah.
aku pon cm x sedar.
heee.
all in all,best!layaannn.
but the elaboration is kinda draggy,but i've already put up with it.
semangat pnye pasal.
wheee~

cant wait fr the next chap! :D

konklusinya;

dea adalah SGT COOL.
tlgla fhm
haish.

addicted.

2008-10-28T18:25:00.006+08:00

oh yes.a NEW addiction.

fatin introduced it to me,but that time i was at the cc,so mcm mls,n since now i'm home for the sem break,nothing to do,bored senseless,came across one of its artwork,and here i am.

stuck in front of the computer,trying to finish another 150 chaps.

so far so good.the plot is a bit slow,but its worth the wait.

skrg aku tgh experience BLOOD yg bermakna.heee.

fav character?too early to tell.more n more interesting ppl keep on appearing.
but lets say i'll have a run for reborn,lambo n i-pin.
kawaii!! <3>

somehow interested?click on reborn-chan.

and this is what i truly call cute,but deadly ;)

of kupu-kupu and quite a long post.

2008-10-24T05:41:00.009+08:00

haih mengantuk.tp sbab dh nk dkat subuh dh,tunggu la kejap kn.mcm dh lama x subuh on time?asyik gajah je.hm

so what have i been doing since the break started?well,as usual,nothing much.eat,sleep,tv, sleep,sms-ing,help with chores,more sleep,n oh yeah,sitting in front of the comp like my life depended on it.hiperbol?lets say those two days without the internet i was bored senseless.i slept more (considering with the fact that even with the internet on i still hv my extra hours of sleeping),bergayut di wayar telefon,sleep again,n mmbantai crite kt tv.

not bad really,the tv.since internet had taken over tv's place in my heart (wtf?),i've becoming less of a couch potato.so yesterday i was browsing through the infoguide,n tetbe trnmpk,eh2,Butterfly!
dgn lantas daku mmbuat keputusan utk menontonnya.turned out to be,quite not bad.i mean its an indon movie,so mcm buat aku emo tuh kre dh cukup bgsla kn (mmbajet diri susah nk emo.hee) ?
basically i knew this story from the ost itself,yg si alyaa dok pasang ulang2 (ok i hope alyaa doesnt read this.sho aku kne balik.haha).bolehla thn lagu dea.self-titled ost by melly feat andhika pratama.evntho buteRRRfly cm x bley blah sket.and act aku mcm nk tgk lg cte tuh hari ni,judging by the fact that :

1. andhika pratama tu comel

2. too many distractions yesterday.missed out most of the important parts.

3. andhika pratama tu comel.

4.technically i did enjoy the movie.

5. bored?dan sy x dibenarkan ke midvalley hari ini.menyedihkn.

6. did i mention andhika pratama tu comel?

at last i cn take shia off my mind fr a while,but that doesnt mean bye2.no no no!!haha.apahal gle.well its better than having to remind self about that you-know-who which i really hope i can get over him by next sem.hoping.hoping.

tp seriously andhika pratama tuh comel bangat deyh!frst time dgr nama dia (sbb dia nyanyi ost.) i thought he was some long-bearded,long-haired,berkumis kind of middle-aged guy with 90s speckies.but at the end of the credits i saw hs name as farno i was like,comel!haha.therefore dont judge a book by its name.hee.
but seriously,how can you become lesbos with him around??x paham sy.xpelah.haih.

and then igtkn after that nk sambung menaip,tgk2 ada Sepi.haish.tunggu jela ye list?haha
Sepi nh lgla xyah cte btape emonya aku tgk.haih.segan nk ngaku.tp sumpah emola.ey cte psl baizura kahar sgt sedih ok?yg tony eusoff tuh lgla xyah ckp.emo2.huhu.

and that was yesterday.i realised that my recent previous posts were mostly dramatically written (yea right),so i decided to mengarut2 a bit.the thing i didn't do much lately.being home really put me in that mood.

lets go subuh! :D

now i'm speechless,over the edge i'm just breathless.

2008-10-19T00:05:00.005+08:00

haish.

tlgla fhm.

fhm kn?

haih.

you know you gotta help me out

2008-10-15T20:51:00.004+08:00

oh yes

lusa physics,but here i am at the cc buat perangai mcmla aku level 5 abes exam hari ni.

hm

and i still dont know why i still cant get over you know who

i mean,tolongla.its not like we both ever had any sparks la apelah all those stuff la kan

and he even seems to hate me

sumpah!

so why am i still having thoughts about him like a stupid idiot mcm-dh-xde-bnda-nk-buat-n-xde-org-laen-ke-nk-melekat-dlm-otak-aku bastard.

urgh!

aku sgt membenci diri sendiri skrg ini

sgt helplesss

no.helpless is an understatement.

let me find another word in the thesaurus n inform you later.

haish.

tolongla,tolonglaaaa asiah concentrate physics!mcmla fzk kau hebat sgt!

adeih

but once in a while when i was into those fluids in motion things (well i was about to write trash but well no its no piece of trash.tlgla sedar kau nk jd engineer.konon.)muncullah out of nowhere si you know who n this kind of sinking feeling that makes me feel so,nk ke toilet?ok that sounds so wrong.hm.

i hate this.i hate myself in this mode.sumpah cheesy nk mampos.

in conclusion,today's post is just for the sake of 'melepaskan pekung di dada'.

uuu.uuu.

God i feel so helpless :(

dhla.g baca phy!

seasons with no summer,rock n roll without a drummer..?

2008-10-07T04:52:00.004+08:00

zac efron was soo,uh,ew? =_=''

it's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen

2008-09-30T11:50:00.006+08:00

And we find the reasons why
One step at a time :)

esok raya!! =D

guilty feet have got no rhythm.

2008-09-23T14:48:00.013+08:00

ok hari ni aku rajin,mimpi ape tah pegi kelas awal,ble smpi xde org lagi,dok situ nk dekat 10 minit n tgk2 rupa2nya klas cancel.

???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tensi kot?apahal kot xnk kstaw satu kelas?nk ckp xde no. aku rasenye ade je.naseb baek bieyl dtg,or x,god noes how long i'll be sitting there like an idiot.adei.

since my last post,honestly,my life hasn't been a bit better.yesterday we got our phy cam,n yeah,guess what,mine was in red.
fishla.
so i decided to cry my eyes out,thinking that maybe today i'll forget (a little,atleast) about the past,n say to myself,that life must go on.
turned out i didn't feel a lil bit,not even a teenie weenie,microscopic or whatever better than yesterday.
and actually i feel worse.
there's this small voice somewhere inside of me (which i cn guarantee,no devils,setan kne ikat kot?) that says,'tukarla kos.u're going nowhere with engineering'
and aku dh bergn2 dh nk tukar nilai,whatsonot2,nk bljr sejeq lg (konon),but then there's another voice,saying,'x kesian ke mak bpk kau?'
haih.

therefore here i am,once again,dwelling against myself with this losing battle mine,whatsoever.
guess i have to ask my parents,sibs,adviser,friends.......entahla.right now i'm thinking of sticking to it anyway.i missed doing chem (haha) n maths (double haha).

and oh yeah,eventho how hard i tried,i still have this same feeling where as if my heart does a somersault and jumps into a puddle of quicksand whenever whoever is concerned,is still concerned by me.

*censored for infinite cursing*

of fish n chips.

2008-09-20T01:04:00.002+08:00

so as my life diibaratkan as a car crash survivor,the one which the car jth dlm gaung kt gua musang,falling so hard due to earth's gravity,ignoring air friction,and F=ma (ok let me stop this);i think i've had enough of those times where i keep myself in that car for quite a time and weep and swore to myself that i would not go to klntn again by car,and towards the end i'm slowly embracing that light of hope,once again letting myself feel the sun and starting to climb up the gaung one step at a time.however,if u dont layan metaphores and dont understand a single crap i wrote,let me get this straight;my life sucked,and i fucking need to get over it.

just 3 months in cfsiium,and i hve to fckng deal with these internal conflicts that no one knows,hidden beneath those wide grins and fake emtions,trying to be someone i dont even know what i will turn into.i mean,wth is wrong with me???what am i trying to do???who am i trying to impress???

the answers?hanya Allah shj tahu.

and here i am writing crap all over again which when ppl read n the frst thing they'll hv in mind is,wtf?so yeah.i am assuming.and frankly speaking,i'm good at it too.

therefore i have to conclude,why am i the one who is trying to please everybody,and nobody actually gives a shitting hell about me.wtf?omg i'm being emo.again.

please note that the above does not refer to my life in cfs whatsoever.it refers to my entire life.

but then yesterday's study circle did give me the courage to move on.and yes,as corny as it sounds,it did help me to be more bersmgt.so i've decided to move on.get a grip.score for finals (eventho it is C.hell i dont want to repeat physics 1).and yeah.live life to the fullest.why should i care about ppl who doesn't give a shit about me.so yeah.yeahhhhh..!!fish?

ok so i am done crapping.these are my so-called attempt to get over and done with it,via writing.maybe i shouldn't be so self-centered.i think i should care less about ppl.talking about contradictions and irony.

and please.please make me forget him :[

smile...tomorrow will be worse.

2008-08-18T20:53:00.000+08:00

well,try me.

in the end,all over again

2008-08-12T11:20:00.000+08:00

physcs ku :'((

once you know there was never,never an honest word

2008-08-08T14:00:00.008+08:00

the song had been stuck in my head since last tuesday.

somehow chris martin looks like some wacko in this vid,and he actually resembles wt i've been acting like when i'm alone these few days.seriously.

all thanks to my beloved physics.

i keep on talking trash but i never say anything

2008-07-23T15:26:00.001+08:00

...

its a marvelous night for a moondance.

2008-07-17T22:42:00.004+08:00

here i am,berfoya2 di cc,x sedar la kn esok nk quiz phy la kn.
haa.bijak2.

haih
jujue hv been telling me to post this stupid story about last week's rly stupid/bangang/censored/whatever u may call it incident but nnt lah.tempat nh mcm x berapa sesuai utk menulis?hm
i hv nothing to say rly.with the fact thet yesterday i was supposed to go this elc (or is it els?) agm but however mcm baek la kn,esok nya nk kuiz biol x baca2 lg pape,hasrat nk study ptg tuh tp last2 dok membuta spnjg ptg mcm x bagus la kn utk masa depan(?).wtf?
so i heard from a friend this morning that yesterday's meeting was quite fun.aiiiiiih.nyesal kot?tp xpela.ade hikmah di sebalikny.i mean,i cn/cud? answer that frigging bio test.okla kn?

actually i hv no point whatsoever to write anything.its just a matter of i'm bored n tired of phy (konon,pdhl hakikatnye dr td m/s yg psl conversion of units tuh x gerak2),so please,please bear with me.heee

till then?hax :D

everybody's dancing in the moonlight!

2008-06-26T14:55:00.003+08:00

well,supposedly i have arabic n ls classes this evening but ustzh said it would b a waste since only 3 ppl will attend so she cancelled the class.yay :D
and madam menaka is on mc so ls classes is also cancelled.double yay :D :D
and i've passed the shafawi test.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ehem.alhamdulillah.hee

n it hv been 3 weeks since i got in cfs.
ape nk kata eh?bolehlaaaaa
most of the classes started earlier this week,n since it was only the intros,i guess i can cope.
ttwla nnt2 kn.hrp2 boleh.
biology hv never failed to confuse me n yes,buku phy sgt berat.
the lecturers from what i cn tell now,they are fun (la gak.jap.phy fun ke?hahah.)
n sure.mancis :D which i cannot elaborate much.nnt2la.heeee

so far my life is still on the right lane.
still kinda lame (as u cn see)
bt much more 'productive' then the last 6 months.
tgklah nnt apa akan jd.
haih.

n i still feel like a lame-o. :/

goodnight,goodnight

2008-06-10T02:33:00.001+08:00

memandangkan esok nk gi iium,haih.
special request buat hanumun ;)

bj x packing lg kot?haih.

If you could meet David Archuleta for a day,what would you do?

2008-06-06T01:29:00.004+08:00

cubet pipi dea. :)

i feel it in my fingers,i feel it in my toes.

2008-05-24T11:39:00.005+08:00

scene#1

*sniffs*

scene#2

jamie : it's my favourite time of day,driving you.
aurelia : it's my saddest time of day,leaving you.

:)))))))))

scene#3

i love the whole the grant/mccutcheon moments n this scene.heee.cheesy nk mam.tp sukalahh.haihhh :D

bnyk lg sebenrnya.but i think i hv to post the whole movie if i want to post all of the fav.hee

actually i was,i mean,am supposed to spring clean my room.but being a bum-bum as i always do,i think i'll do it in a mo.my in a mo.heee :D

you may say i'm a dreamer,but i'm not the only one.awh.

2008-05-23T15:21:00.004+08:00

ok,for some reason,i hadnt been writing in this for some time.
its not my fault,really.the lazy virus had been occasionally biting over n over,plus the four walls have always been keeping my head from thinking straight.
yea right,whatever.

there're nothing to write about,since there's not much interesting things to say in life at the moment.march was pretty much devastating,april was nevertheless boring,yada2. my life had almost going down the drain,but hey,life must go on.eventhough it requires them to swim trough muck n grime,n an endless supply of plague.hmmm.

however,yesterday i went to watch Indiana Jones dan Kota Tengkorak Kristal,or wtf.since this was a sequel to those serial films back in the 80's,ramailah pakcik2 in their mid 30s n 40s yg datang tgk,obviously cuz indiana jones was a hit back when they were about my age,or some
of them grew up watching their fathers watching those films.or whatever.i,however,watched this film practically because cik amira hafni teringin nk tgk.it was my first time watching,really,since i was not an avid fan of watching old movies or some sort,and watching these kind of
movies buat sakit hati.i mean,how cool is translating mayan and reading
ideograms plus discovering archaeological sites????all when it has always been my dream to become one.haih.sabar jela.

so tgk punya tgk,turned out it was good (well,obviously since its a
spielberg film and i've watched a few scenes from the old series).although the first few minutes were pretty boring.cate blanchett looks freaky in that weirdo hairstyle,and harrison ford dh tua.nuff said.but after the most anticipated shia labeouf appeared,hey2.hahah.kla,it is a really good movie,got me
gripping on my seat in heart tugging action(no kidding),funny yet charming (mainly because there's shia.heee) and heartwarming too.jap.yeke.ade kot.hahah.so watch it,while its still on the cinema.x best tgk kt tv.x puas
tgk henry jones the 3rd.hax.

after the movie,pegi la mkn,usha2 stores,dan berjaya membeli sepasang kasut,dgn nasihat/hasutan merr.balik awal,since k.tong nk balik melaka.sggh aeon bkt tinggi beli food.and,i have to agree with jujue,
laws of attraction do works!!!ok,it was more by instinct,since i was too
tired to be hoping in meeting you-know-who,but hey,no ones complaining.
i was excited cam bangang sampai ade sorg bdak kecik nh pndg pelik cam hape kt aku.hey,aku tgh thrill ok?biarla xD

all in all,it was a good day (eventhough if you read this you couldn't find whats so exciting,sorry i'm becoming lamer).except for the fact archuleta didnt win the american idol.waaaaa.aku x sggp tgk ulangan dea,nnt aku
lak nanges.hahah.emo.
the truth is i'm not a big fan of archuleta,but he's sooooo adorable!!!!!!!
like a puppy-eyed 8 year old.a puppy-eyed 8 yr old who can sing.
a puppy-eyed 8 yr old who cn really,really sing.seriously.so u cant
blame me for giving all my sympathy towards the kid.he's too cute!!!awhhhh.rase nk amek title je.heee

oklah.before the bored-ness of it all turns unbearably unbearable,i think should stop.haihh.later? :D

hey big spender,spend a little time with me ;)

2008-03-11T14:16:00.003+08:00

I PASSED JPJ!!!
alhamdulillah :)
wheeeeheeeeee~~~~

sekarang aku boleh risau psl results spm dgn aman =_="

kindaichi shounen no jikenbo!

2008-03-09T04:02:00.002+08:00

ooooh teringin gle nk tengok!
semua org mcm smart gle.
hajime-kun,kengo-chan!hahahs! :D

itsudemo,itsudemo.

2008-03-07T20:19:00.003+08:00

yuki and ashia at mcD japan.
heee.missing those memories :*)

thanks yuki-chan!i love this pic XD

. . .

2008-03-04T17:02:00.002+08:00

QTI.
lulus.
tapi kena marah :((((((

and most of all,its built to last :)

2008-03-01T15:29:00.013+08:00

a tribute.or some sort.
due to excessive boredom.

The family is a haven in a heartless world.
~Attributed to Christopher Lasch

“When I was a kid my parents moved a lot, but I always found them.”
~Rodney Dangerfield

The parents: Tn. Hj. Ishak & Pn Samsiah.

the best i've ever had :)
thank you for all the guidance.
sorry for all the...urm...misfortune? =_="

Brothers and sisters are as close as hands and feet.
~Vietnamese Proverb

The (older) sibs : K.yong,Angah,Abangyus (editted by request) ^^;;.

just a usual get-to-know conversation.

"eh apa nama kakak2 kau?"
"*rujuk pengenalan di atas*"
"abang kau?"
"*rujuk lagi*"
"wah.uniknya(or pelik,pnjg,they differ from ppl to ppl)."
"yea.nama aku je normal."
"knp nama kau xde 'Sairatul'?"
"..."

A friend is like a four leaf clover,
hard to find but lucky to have.
- Samantha Rosales -

The Best Friend : Ms.Ely Amylin.or Ms.Akechi.or Ms.Longbottom.
n all the names we grew up with :)))

i'll always be impressed with ur addmaths.
thanks for always being there for me.i'll treasure u forever.
heee.maafla sweet sgt. :p

yea,ely,if u ever read this lah kn,sry i took ur pic from fs.dh 8 thn berkwn haprak satu gambar together pn xde,haish.nk kata dua2 segan camera x juga la kn.hmm.
yea,remind me to take a picture of us when u get back.before u leave for plkn again.haish.

The 10 *hee.it fits! :D* : (clockwise)Nazeeratul Afiqah,Ihmal Syamila,
Intan Salme,Norhana,Nur Amaleina,Nur Amira,Afiza Hanum,Alyaa Syazana,
Hamizah.

mish u guys to bits!shygness unlimited.rindu pantry. :s
i'll cherish every moment we spend together.
AKU NAK IKUT KORG CAMPING LA WEYYYY!!!
boohoo.

pesanan penaja

nasee : aku dh sgt ttw kau akan end up atas pelamin dgn siapa.
mylano : jgn asek 3 wood pls?
kintanun : bila kau nk turun kl nh wehhh???
hanna : kau pn sama.chih.
amalabue : baiyuk no.1!!!nnt2 aku dtg seremban ok?
ahmerr : bubu debuk ratu nondeyh,aku akan sentiasa mendoakan kebahagiaan kau dgn
bebi zacky ok?
hanumun : aku ttw nape everytime nk kua dgn kau sure x jd.dekat tp jauh.aiiih....
aly : degil.ringkas tp padat.
meez : oh dewi shibster *julung2 kali menyembah*.ulat2 aku x saba nk berpom2 lg nh.hihi.

A friend is someone who walks in
when the whole world has walked out.
~Author Unknown

The trio : Nur Aisyah,Zulaika Shamin.

cant wait for the next outing!cepatlaa abes pilihanraya!!
missing those ss times,***** times,n of cz heesto times.
haha.jujue,u conquer most of it la.aisyah sgt maju ok?u bila lg?with ur newbie? :)

The shdare : Nur Syafiqah Amira.

Sheque,terima kasih atas segala dorongan anda.hahax!
kau tetap sdare kesygn ku :)
cd enchanted,bila nk ks? :D

The batch : Pioneers 0307.

kamu sentiasa berada di dalam hatiku :)
maaf.gambar msk x muat.heee :*D

dah tu siapa suruh biar aku bosan??? XC

ohh dead!

2008-03-01T14:38:00.003+08:00

the first day of march 2008.

well,actually today i was supposed to take my pra u/qti/whatever u might call it.
tp mcm x jadi je,so here i am,stuck in the house.like always.siigh
and actually my parents wanted to go to malacca,but yeah,once again,x jadi.hujan.malas.
act aku pn malas sbnrnya,aku lagi semangat nk ambil pre test,tp yalah,x jd.
haish.time aku nk semangat lah dea nk cancel.watev.

hm.all of the sudden i miss singing to mcr.heee.sbb emo kot recently.hihi :)

i'm bored.help!

maybe i was being too shibby.maaf.

2008-02-29T18:03:00.002+08:00

last day of february.
its leap year ppl! XD

well i hope u can just ignore the very emo post before this.
everything is getting into me.
i need to spill.
tsk tsk tsk. XC

maaf kalau ada yg terasa.tiada kaitan dgn yg hidup atau yg tlh meninggal dunia.
its just me.cranky,cranky me :(

during these times i can really be a potential b!atch.

2008-02-27T16:58:00.005+08:00

during these times of the month i get cranky for no reason at all.
i'm so frigging hungry,exhausted,pissy,annoyed,clueless,anxious,depressed,disappointed,yada yada yada.
and practically there's no one to blame.
so i SEARCH for excitement.
my way of excitement.
which includes,CPDA.
for u people who doesn't have any idea of what CPDA means,u're better off not knowing.
seriously.

oh and did i tell you that tomorrow,thursday,dated 28th of february there will be a trip to malim nawar,perak that for how many times i wont have a chance to go.
with the same reason,'u have more time to enjoy urself.'
so what am i suposed to do now?
okay,i know THOSE things that i was supposed to do.
but please.i need a friend-fix,which includes going somewhere far (not very far) from home and a helpful dose of fun time from people i don't get to see everyday.
can't u see my point???
yeah,i really hope u do.

so then again again,maybe i will.
does this phrase ring a bell?
oh yea,if u read my bulletins on fs then u get the picture.or from any other sources that you may find the same,it's just plain coincidence.we credited each other.yeah right.
there's this certain wanna be that really got me.
okay.so it's not usual for me for bugging into other ppl's business (yea i think so)
but seriously,this certain someone really got me.
i mean,COME ON!GET A LIFE!BE YOURSELF!!!!!
i don't know how far your words are true,but please,JANGAN BAJET BOLEH X???
tidak perlu meniru gaya hidup orang lain mungkin?
maybe the other party is not that good either,but atleast she is what she is?
TOLONGLAH.JANGAN BUAT AKU EMO THAN WHAT I ALREADY AM.
yeah.maybe u guys will think this is not my business at all.
but if u dont state yourself over the limit,ok i dont really get what i'm saying but u get the point,
maybe i wont care.maybe.maybe i wont even know your existence.
but that is your point right?letting EVERYONE know about your existence.
whateverlaaa.suka hati kaula.
dh la nak bajet sweet.chis.ulat2 aku pn xmo keluar dgn sweet kau yg sgtla poyo itu.
so what i'm trying to say is,diam.boleh?diam.
or if u don't want to 'diam',better improve so i dont feel like using red pen whenever i come across your,ANYTHING.
bukanlah nak kata aku bagus sangat ke apa tapi aku set mana?dan,dan kau pula?
serious wey,aku kesian dgn sesape yg ajar kau...em...the subjectlah.

alamak.mungkin jahat sgt.tapi blog aku.so be with it.
sudah sudahlah.
well,however,i DO hope you read this.
and i DO hope u understand.
but i know u will.i hope so.WE hope so.

p/s:i didn't mean to criticize.i know u're trying.as what people always say,'atleast u've tried'
(maaflah,aku x philosophical,x reti nk quote falsafah orang sgt).tapi cara kau mencuba tuh buat aku pecah perut.maaf.

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket

2008-02-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

...never let it fade away :)

oh wheeeee~
costa rica's the name.
johnny kruger yg buatkan (yea how i wish la kan =_=")
nade kn? :D

a brilliant way of promoting an ice-cream brand that looks less than plain.

2008-02-16T11:15:00.002+08:00

most yummy-licious ice-cream ad voted by moi.

if you know what i really mean ;)

happy vday!

2008-02-14T18:32:00.002+08:00

oh yeah,valentines
the most awaited day by all those lovey dovey couples out there
a celebration of looooooove
yea,what the heck.
oh,don't get me wrong,i have nothing against this so-called 'hari kekasih'
but hey,the thing that makes me most excited is
7 days more ppl!wheee~~ :D
oops did i mention that?sorry.bad acee.malulah sikit! :*)

so.3 things that i like about vday:
1. obviously,7 days towards myself becoming older.(cukup berlapiskah?:*D)
2. there are more variety of tv shows (like other days doesn't)
3. another year spending it alone.which is,yay! XD no i'm serious.yay! XD
*oh lupa.past years i celebrated it with sspians.heeeee.

bak kata lyn,vals mmg cheesy.tp cheesy sweet tidak mengapalah kn?

top 3 all-time favourite romantic movies :
1. ghost.wehh,genang,genang!
2. jerry maguire.sweeeet :*)
3. the holiday.yea,cheesy n ppl say its kinda boring but hell i loike it! :D

top 3 favourite love songs(actually sgt2 banyaaaaaaaaak tataw nk pilih yg mana but here it goes):
1. when i fall in love,lagu nh banyak org nyanyi balik.but i like celine dion's vers with clive griffins.
2. one more time,chante moore
3. parachutes,coldplay

my recommendation of love related novels(wth?):
1. a walk to remember.leleh sioott.
2. the notebook.oh do watch the movie too. :)
*i dun read chic lits or romance novels but i adore nicholas sparks.jadi ini sahajalah yg saya mampu. :*)

yea,the truth is,which it is quite hard for me to admit it,i'm quite a romantic at heart
(ok ew).
take that baaaaaaaaaaack!noooooooooooooooooooo! XC
ok kalau orang baik dia x mengaku kn?ok2.

finally,the one person i would like to be my date on vday this year :

dennis joseph o'neil.any girl would want him for a date.or any homo.
siapa berani mengaku tak???huh???ok jgn bang aku ye.haha. :P
if i can,ooh i couldn't be more thankful!
sujud syukur masa tuh jgak wehhh..!!!
can someone wrap this for me for my bday? <3333333

tidak salahkan utk bermimpi? :*3

shut up and let me drive!

2008-02-14T15:28:00.002+08:00

okay,somehow the title says it all.
as u know,i've already started that 8 hour session,n the first 2 hours was quite enjoyable.
my instructor was en.nasir,a man(obviously),in his 50's,really nice.
he was more to 'ala budak baru lagi lama2 ok lah tu' impression,or so i see it,since the engine turned dead twice n i was practically driving the car ala riding a horse(seriously),dan dia hanyalah memarahi aku sperti seorg atuk memarahi cucunya.
betul!x tipu!plus he continued whistling everytime after he gave me instructions.okla.
since he's like a father figure,i couldn't ask more for a better instructor than him.
but well,like they say,"kita hanya merancang tetapi Allah menetukan".
hihi.cam hape je.

13 februari 2008.telefon berdering.
'hello?'
'nurul asiah?'
'ye saya.'
'ni pusat memandu.jadual kau lambat sgtlah.jd kau bole x dtg hari nh.pukul 4.'
melihat jam.br pkul 12 pm.abah tiada di rumah.
'em..boleh kot'
'oh ok.nh kau belajar bfr gi kapar,nnt dh ok kau bljr dgn en.nasir balik k?'(the truth is i didnt rly got the point what she was talking about.but since it was for driving,)
'okay.'
'pkul 4 ye?'
'uhuh.'
'byee'

*the conversation may differ from the real one.tp biarlah.

so mandi2 siap2 sme,abah balik,lunch.haha.yea lunch kol 3.30 pm.x kesahlaa.
sampai asmah misbah tuh,tunggu,sampai.
an unknown instructor.
middle-aged guy,with shades,nama tidak diketahui sampai sekarang.
oh well.there's nothing to lose.
so he brought me to bkt tinggi/botani area to drive.
mula2 okla.he was silent.
and this was my second time driving on the highway.
so wht do you expect la kn?
aku tgh hampeh2 lg drive nh.
then masyaAllah haii
he started to bebel at me.
ok fine that was his job la kan.
n i am a newbie.
mmg patut la kena bebel.
tapi bebel dea walaweyy kalah mak aku oiiii.serius!!
from the way i drive until my family background.
uih.assumption die hebat.ok,i'll get to that later.
firstly,die suruh aku pandu ke kiri.pandu lah ke kiri.
then he said 'jgn!nnt langgar divider'.ok i ke kanan sikit.
then dia kata jangan makan jalan.kalau jpj nnt terus dia kasi gagal.
sebab memandu secara berbahaya.okaay..
pastu dia bebel la nnt malu nnt org tuh yg drivekn balik,spm lg susah dr memandu,my way of handling the stereng(ok,i admit it sux),membanding2kan aku dagn pljr2 yg lebih cepat bljr(dia nak kata aku lampi sbnrnya.cih),and the list goes on and on and on and on and on...
sampai aku tataw dia kata apa.i was trying my best to keep my face straight.
dan yg paling x tahan ialah,dia kata aku 'tiada gaya seorang pemandu.'
itu sgt kelakar ok?kalau dia kata aku xde rupa pemandu berhemah takpa la jgak.
ini macam,aku tidak dilahirkan untuk memandu.
agak sedihla gak,tapi kelakar tuh amat sgt!
aku fikirlah sejenak,mcm mana nak buat gaya seorg pemandu.
pastu dia bebel2 lagi.and then balik.dia drivekn.
and then he started a conversation la pasal the area,so i said oh saya lalu sini bila nk balik sekolah,dia tanya my school,mak kerja apa,ayah buat apa,adik beradik n
all.
tp x thnnya cara dia meng'assume' kehidupanku lah kan.
nanti aku amek bisnes,meneruskan bisnes ayah.i was like,wth?business is like my
last choice.tetbe aku nak ambil alih bisnes bapak aku.bapak aku pn xde company,bisnes amendenye.
pastu dia kata,x payah ckplaa,abg pn dh taw rumah sure ada 4 5 biji kt damansara,seremban..
ok seremban tuh betulla,tapi sebijik xtra je abg oii.
he was so into making assumptions sampai aku nak interrupt pun x boleh.
uh..suka hati kau la.

today i had the lessons again
this time he less bebel,since i finally got it.bolehla.x memandu secara berbahaya lagi,since he let me drive home.wheeeeheeeee~~~! X)
belajar mendaki hari ni.fuhhh.penat pdahal xdela pape sgt kot.aku je yg chuak lebih2
nk lepas tiang tuh ke x.
what pisses me off was the area had too many stray dogs lingering around.dhla nmpk kereta still nk terhege2 lagi.ish.tensi.
well,tomorrow(or monday,x sure lg) i'll be learning parking,which from what i can see sgt meletihkn.
for now my fav will be 3 pointer.mendaki tuh still new for me so mcm ala2 chuak
yg poyo ada lagi.

heheh. =)

shut up and drive.

2008-02-11T15:27:00.000+08:00

my 8 hour session had started!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeee~ (X

eheheh.manis.teruja. <3

"i love you.you complete me.""shut up.you had me at hello."

2008-02-10T02:56:00.000+08:00

3.02 a.m.
kepeningan,tp malas nak tidur lagi.
abah dh balik dr jakarta.ingat balik esok,rupanya arinh.cheh,x boleh tidur kat master bedroom hari ni.haha.macam suka sangat je.
so that day,the day i watched sweeney todd,that night i caught a cold.fever.or whatever u call it.mula2 sakit tekak,demam,selsema.lastly,hari ni semua hilang,tinggal batuk je.berperingkat2 plak dia.tapi ok la tu kan.
like always,my days just gone by with me sticking my arse on the sofa.pergh.sofa tua ini sudah pun lunyai,tambah dgn aku duduk di situ tiap-tiap hari,menghadap tv berjam-jam.tapi tidak mengapa,daripada memurungkan diri dan bersedih serta merasakan
hidup sesuatu yang membebankan tetapi sebenarnya tidak,hanya tertipu dengan ilusi kebosanan,lantas melakukan perkara2 bodoh seperti mencederakan diri sendiri atau melakukan benda2 yang memudaratkn,lebih baik menambahkan berat badan dengan
duduk membuang masa menonton tv dan online,bukan?okla,maybe it will lead to health
problems,sooner or later,haha.but yeah.if its me,i wont mess up my already boring but happy life
just bydepressing myself with issues that i can just brush away easily.i'm not bragging,
but hey,at least i'm happy.no one's going to kill me.yet.i hope so.ehehe.takut.
yea,because to me,its pathetic.enjoy life when you still can.why think about problems when you actually have none?buat serabut otak sahaja.bak kata mizah n co.,bapak LLL.
enough said.

so where was i?oh.at last,finally,i watched jerry maguire.taw x citer tuh keluar tahun bila ntah tapi aku br dpt tgk tahun ni???menyedihkan.i know.tapi yea,i still enjoyed it,although its kinda cheesy lah.tp bearable.it was sweet though.my favourite moment?in the elevator,those two deaf/mute couple was communicating in sign language.when renee zellweger said that it meant,'you complete me.',it was like,awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.the sign language,i mean.aww.seriously.haha.i went all gooey,sorry.banyak sebenarnya.but this is the most favourite :)

tadi pun baru berkesempatan nak tgk Pirates of the Caribbean:Dead Man's Chest.yea,menyedihkan,sekali lagi.i know.
there's pakcik depp(obviously.tell something we don't know acee)!!!i was so teruja.haha.i was like,oh depp,it was just last wednesday i watched you slit people's throat happily,and now i see you all cute and afraid of a giant squid.awww.sweet.

actually i'm hungry.my headache is wearing off.food,anyone?

of pakcik depp and mr.robin

2008-02-07T05:16:00.000+08:00

erh,post di bawah tiada tajuk.
maaf.
kira sekalilah ni (konon2) :*D

Kissing Me!-Alex,Daniel Henney.

sgt awwwwwwww :*)
oh yea.dia ada di kirana juga =))))

2008-02-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

ok the last post was quite emo
sorry about that
symptoms kot.u know what. :**D

i've been giddy lately,too giddy;no,too is an understatement,terlamapau giddy.yea.that's the word.nk kata sugar high x juga.hmn.sampai mzh gelarkan aku shibi master kan.dahla wey,tgh cuba nk taubat!ngaa!poyo aja. :*))))

its already 3.53 in the morning.usually i'm already sound asleep by now,diuliti mimpi2 nan indah.but today i don't feel like sleeping,since i took a bath at nearly 1 am.and i'm not feeling quite well.tulaaa,ngumpat lagi.hehehehehe...

ohhhh,tadi dapat keluar dgn yasmin!!dgn a friend of hers.but yeah,finally!!dpt keluar!!we went to bkt raja,n watched sweeney todd.at first we thought we were the only ones who were watching.aku dah nak tukar tempat,nk sakai dlm panggung dah.then ppl started coming in.okla x jadi nk sakai.so we watched;dh sakai2 sme(we were dreading 'kejadian x-men' berulang,tp x,nsb baik),yasmin had to head home early so i called abah to fetch me,terserempak dgn 'org disyaki gay',jeleskan myl,abgyus called,sggh mynews.com kononnya nk cr 7teen tp xde so i ended up buying cleo.n balik.yeah,that was the so called outing.it was short,but satisfying.honestly.

there,atlast i went to watch sweeney todd,the movie that i was so anticipated to watch.kononlaaaa nk tgk kt pav,last2 kt bkt raja je.but hell who cares.jadi dapatlah lepaskn kempunan nk tgk sweeney todd nya.pakcik depp versi benjamin barker gay gay gila,tolongla faham.therefore my opinion is,tim burton,the fake blood is so fake,please try to use a better shade next time.tp fake2 pon,wey goli denn!it was frigging disturbing!!!generally.it didn't disturbed me as much,and since i asked reviews from ppl who had waatched,i didnt expect muchla.don't get me wrong,it was a good movie,the message was quite good,really.but as lyn said,'it was a good movie but i wouldnt reccommend it to ppl'.but i do recommend it!go watch sweeney todd!but my advice is,please watch it with ppl who have sense of humour.jgn tgk dgn org yg serius n especially dgn org yg tgh depressed,nanti sumpah korang x tdo mlm.serious!well,xlah,tp lebih kurang.
luckily i watched it with amin.the first few minutes of the movie and we were already sakai-ing.no,u can't blame us.since it was musical,it started with a guy singing about london,yeah,london.and i was like,oh gay sungguh!pls,no offense.but i like that pitch black song depp sang,agak catchy la walaupun emo,boleh join mcr.or any emo bands.yasmin was already mocking,we still can laugh until this part.the elixir one(oh ppl,if u haven't watched it,sorry for the spoilers).we were like,omg,pondan nh gila!and after that terus masuk part2 yg mengganggu jiwa.it was quite a suspense,since mr.t nh mcm kelar tekak orang mcm buat vandalisme pada tempat-tempat awam(ok,lame metaphor).sesuka hati je,so we wont know what he'd do next.
eish.another thing,the sound effect was really,uh,ewwwwwwwwwwww!!i mean,i can live without the sounds ok?tolonglah.the costumes n settings are nice,cuma dari segi keceriaan dia tiada.the voices are good,and i mean it,they are really,really good.cuma(hahah.semua ada cuma) bila part johanna nyanyi agak bingitla(sorry johanna,we really dont gv a damn about your nightingale).buat aku pening sikit.the songs are nice,but they are no sing-a-longs.the johanna n the stalker song agak melawakkan.apa lagi ye?hmm.overall it was a good watch;minus the fact that all these flesh and blood will make me end up having a major headache,and the ending was quite depressing.untuk aku agakla,but if to ppl it is very,very depressing.i find it quite funny though,the way the blood oozes out.ada satu nh mcm air terjun,and i was like,'.............wth?'.jadi disebabkan sakit kepala ku yg tidak dapat dibendung lagi,balik2,called a few ppl,solat,tidur.

i woke up at 6.15.weh,berpinar-pinar!itu pun sebab ummi telefon,kalau x sampai pukul berapa ntah.ummi went to alumni meeting,abangyus sent her,and she forgotten to bring her hp,so i had to send a few numbers.soalt asar,sambung tengok Seducing Mr.Perfect.eyt comelllllllllllllll!sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!!!mmg sakit gigila.dhla daniel henney tuh hottie yawww!!aish.sungguh menggetarkan jiwa(ew.ok??).it was kinda good,really,only towards
the end its getting cheesy lah.alah,korean drama kn,what do u expect?and i really like the soundtrack.sweet and calming.eventhough sumpah x faham except for kiss dgn hello.since witch yoo hee really depressed me;melihat dennis ditolak begitu sahaja mmg menyedihkan.gadis itu mmg buta,jadi memang tiada mood untuk menonton,buat sakit hati,lagipn boleh tgk online kn?jadi layanla 'menawan encik sempurna' nh.haha.geli geli.if u have nothing else better to do,try to watch it!dptla mengisi masa lapang,and for ladies boleh mencuci mata n mencairkan diri masing-masing.urgh,tolonglah.corny nk mampus.

so that was my day,yg agak gembira dan sempurna(except the fact that i'm starting to get a cold).till,then,toodles~~

oh,btw,this is the link to Seducing Mr.Perfect.just in case :D
http://www.mysoju.com/seducing-mr-perfect/