maybe i was being too shibby.maaf.

last day of february.
its leap year ppl! XD

well i hope u can just ignore the very emo post before this.
everything is getting into me.
i need to spill.
tsk tsk tsk. XC

maaf kalau ada yg terasa.tiada kaitan dgn yg hidup atau yg tlh meninggal dunia.
its just me.cranky,cranky me :(

during these times i can really be a potential b!atch.

during these times of the month i get cranky for no reason at all.
i'm so frigging hungry,exhausted,pissy,annoyed,clueless,anxious,depressed,disappointed,yada yada yada.
and practically there's no one to blame.
so i SEARCH for excitement.
my way of excitement.
which includes,CPDA.
for u people who doesn't have any idea of what CPDA means,u're better off not knowing.
seriously.


oh and did i tell you that tomorrow,thursday,dated 28th of february there will be a trip to malim nawar,perak that for how many times i wont have a chance to go.
with the same reason,'u have more time to enjoy urself.'
so what am i suposed to do now?
okay,i know THOSE things that i was supposed to do.
but please.i need a friend-fix,which includes going somewhere far (not very far) from home and a helpful dose of fun time from people i don't get to see everyday.
can't u see my point???
yeah,i really hope u do.

so then again again,maybe i will.
does this phrase ring a bell?
oh yea,if u read my bulletins on fs then u get the picture.or from any other sources that you may find the same,it's just plain coincidence.we credited each other.yeah right.
there's this certain wanna be that really got me.
okay.so it's not usual for me for bugging into other ppl's business (yea i think so)
but seriously,this certain someone really got me.
i mean,COME ON!GET A LIFE!BE YOURSELF!!!!!
i don't know how far your words are true,but please,JANGAN BAJET BOLEH X???
tidak perlu meniru gaya hidup orang lain mungkin?
maybe the other party is not that good either,but atleast she is what she is?
TOLONGLAH.JANGAN BUAT AKU EMO THAN WHAT I ALREADY AM.
yeah.maybe u guys will think this is not my business at all.
but if u dont state yourself over the limit,ok i dont really get what i'm saying but u get the point,
maybe i wont care.maybe.maybe i wont even know your existence.
but that is your point right?letting EVERYONE know about your existence.
whateverlaaa.suka hati kaula.
dh la nak bajet sweet.chis.ulat2 aku pn xmo keluar dgn sweet kau yg sgtla poyo itu.
so what i'm trying to say is,diam.boleh?diam.
or if u don't want to 'diam',better improve so i dont feel like using red pen whenever i come across your,ANYTHING.
bukanlah nak kata aku bagus sangat ke apa tapi aku set mana?dan,dan kau pula?
serious wey,aku kesian dgn sesape yg ajar kau...em...the subjectlah.

alamak.mungkin jahat sgt.tapi blog aku.so be with it.
sudah sudahlah.
well,however,i DO hope you read this.
and i DO hope u understand.
but i know u will.i hope so.WE hope so.

p/s:i didn't mean to criticize.i know u're trying.as what people always say,'atleast u've tried'
(maaflah,aku x philosophical,x reti nk quote falsafah orang sgt).tapi cara kau mencuba tuh buat aku pecah perut.maaf.

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket

...never let it fade away :)

oh wheeeee~
costa rica's the name.
johnny kruger yg buatkan (yea how i wish la kan =_=")
nade kn? :D

a brilliant way of promoting an ice-cream brand that looks less than plain.

most yummy-licious ice-cream ad voted by moi.

if you know what i really mean ;)

happy vday!

oh yeah,valentines
the most awaited day by all those lovey dovey couples out there
a celebration of looooooove
yea,what the heck. 
oh,don't get me wrong,i have nothing against this so-called 'hari kekasih'
but hey,the thing that makes me most excited is
7 days more ppl!wheee~~ :D
oops did i mention that?sorry.bad acee.malulah sikit! :*) 

so.3 things that i like about vday: 
1. obviously,7 days towards myself becoming older.(cukup berlapiskah?:*D)
2. there are more variety of tv shows (like other days doesn't)
3. another year spending it alone.which is,yay! XD no i'm serious.yay! XD
*oh lupa.past years i celebrated it with sspians.heeeee.

bak kata lyn,vals mmg cheesy.tp cheesy sweet tidak mengapalah kn? 

top 3 all-time favourite romantic movies : 
1. ghost.wehh,genang,genang!
2. jerry maguire.sweeeet :*)
3. the holiday.yea,cheesy n ppl say its kinda boring but hell i loike it! :D

top 3 favourite love songs(actually sgt2 banyaaaaaaaaak tataw nk pilih yg mana but here it goes):
1. when i fall in love,lagu nh banyak org nyanyi balik.but i like celine dion's vers with clive griffins.
2. one more time,chante moore
3. parachutes,coldplay

my recommendation of love related novels(wth?): 
1. a walk to remember.leleh sioott.
2. the notebook.oh do watch the movie too. :)
*i dun read chic lits or romance novels but i adore nicholas sparks.jadi ini sahajalah yg saya mampu. :*) 

yea,the truth is,which it is quite hard for me to admit it,i'm quite a romantic at heart
(ok ew).
take that baaaaaaaaaaack!noooooooooooooooooooo! XC
ok kalau orang baik dia x mengaku kn?ok2.

finally,the one person i would like to be my date on vday this year :

dennis joseph o'neil.any girl would want him for a date.or any homo.
siapa berani mengaku tak???huh???ok jgn bang aku ye.haha. :P
if i can,ooh i couldn't be more thankful!
sujud syukur masa tuh jgak wehhh..!!!
can someone wrap this for me for my bday? <3333333


tidak salahkan utk bermimpi? :*3

shut up and let me drive!

okay,somehow the title says it all.
as u know,i've  already started that 8 hour session,n the first 2 hours was quite enjoyable.
my instructor was en.nasir,a man(obviously),in his 50's,really nice.
he was more to 'ala budak baru lagi lama2 ok lah tu' impression,or so i see it,since the engine turned dead twice n i was practically driving the car ala riding a horse(seriously),dan dia hanyalah memarahi aku sperti seorg atuk memarahi cucunya.
betul!x tipu!plus he continued whistling everytime after he gave me instructions.okla.
since he's like a father figure,i couldn't ask more for a better instructor than him.
but well,like they say,"kita hanya merancang tetapi Allah menetukan".
hihi.cam hape je.

13 februari 2008.telefon berdering.
'hello?'
'nurul asiah?'
'ye saya.'
'ni pusat memandu.jadual kau lambat sgtlah.jd kau bole x dtg hari nh.pukul 4.'
melihat jam.br pkul 12 pm.abah tiada di rumah.
'em..boleh kot'
'oh ok.nh kau belajar bfr gi kapar,nnt dh ok kau bljr dgn en.nasir balik k?'(the truth is i didnt rly got the point what she was talking about.but since it was for driving,)
'okay.'
'pkul 4 ye?'
'uhuh.'
'byee'

*the conversation may differ from the real one.tp biarlah.

so mandi2 siap2 sme,abah balik,lunch.haha.yea lunch kol 3.30 pm.x kesahlaa.
sampai asmah misbah tuh,tunggu,sampai.
an unknown instructor.
middle-aged guy,with shades,nama tidak diketahui sampai sekarang.
oh well.there's nothing to lose.
so he brought me to bkt tinggi/botani area to drive.
mula2 okla.he was silent.
and this was my second time driving on the highway.
so wht do you expect la kn?
aku tgh hampeh2 lg drive nh.
then masyaAllah haii
he started to bebel at me.
ok fine that was his job la kan.
n i am a newbie.
mmg patut la kena bebel.
tapi bebel dea walaweyy kalah mak aku oiiii.serius!!
from the way i drive until my family background.
uih.assumption die hebat.ok,i'll get to that later.
firstly,die suruh aku pandu ke kiri.pandu lah ke kiri.
then he said 'jgn!nnt langgar divider'.ok i ke kanan sikit.
then dia kata jangan makan jalan.kalau jpj nnt terus dia kasi gagal.
sebab memandu secara berbahaya.okaay..
pastu dia bebel la nnt malu nnt org tuh yg drivekn balik,spm lg susah dr memandu,my way of handling the stereng(ok,i admit it sux),membanding2kan aku dagn pljr2 yg lebih cepat bljr(dia nak kata aku lampi sbnrnya.cih),and the list goes on and on and on and on and on...
sampai aku tataw dia kata apa.i was trying my best to keep my face straight.
dan yg paling x tahan ialah,dia kata aku 'tiada gaya seorang pemandu.'
itu sgt kelakar ok?kalau dia kata aku xde rupa pemandu berhemah takpa la jgak.
ini macam,aku tidak dilahirkan untuk memandu.
agak sedihla gak,tapi kelakar tuh amat sgt!
aku fikirlah sejenak,mcm mana nak buat gaya seorg pemandu.
pastu dia bebel2 lagi.and then balik.dia drivekn.
and then he started a conversation la pasal the area,so i said oh saya lalu sini bila nk balik sekolah,dia tanya my school,mak kerja apa,ayah buat apa,adik beradik n
all.
tp x thnnya cara dia meng'assume' kehidupanku lah kan.
nanti aku amek bisnes,meneruskan bisnes ayah.i was like,wth?business is like my
last choice.tetbe aku nak ambil alih bisnes bapak aku.bapak aku pn xde company,bisnes amendenye.
pastu dia kata,x payah ckplaa,abg pn dh taw rumah sure ada 4 5 biji kt damansara,seremban..
ok seremban tuh betulla,tapi sebijik xtra je abg oii.
he was so into making assumptions sampai aku nak interrupt pun x boleh.
uh..suka hati kau la.

today i had the lessons again
this time he less bebel,since i finally got it.bolehla.x memandu secara berbahaya lagi,since he let me drive home.wheeeeheeeee~~~! X)
belajar mendaki hari ni.fuhhh.penat pdahal xdela pape sgt kot.aku je yg chuak lebih2
nk lepas tiang tuh ke x.
what pisses me off was the area had too many stray dogs lingering around.dhla nmpk kereta still nk terhege2 lagi.ish.tensi.
well,tomorrow(or monday,x sure lg) i'll be learning parking,which from what i can see sgt meletihkn.
for now my fav will be 3 pointer.mendaki tuh still new for me so mcm ala2 chuak
yg poyo ada lagi.

heheh. =)
 

shut up and drive.

my 8 hour session had started!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeee~ (X



eheheh.manis.teruja. <3

"i love you.you complete me.""shut up.you had me at hello."

3.02 a.m.
kepeningan,tp malas nak tidur lagi.
abah dh balik dr jakarta.ingat balik esok,rupanya arinh.cheh,x boleh tidur kat master bedroom hari ni.haha.macam suka sangat je.
so that day,the day i watched sweeney todd,that night i caught a cold.fever.or whatever u call it.mula2 sakit tekak,demam,selsema.lastly,hari ni semua hilang,tinggal batuk je.berperingkat2 plak dia.tapi ok la tu kan.
like always,my days just gone by with me sticking my arse on the sofa.pergh.sofa tua ini sudah pun lunyai,tambah dgn aku duduk di situ tiap-tiap hari,menghadap tv berjam-jam.tapi tidak mengapa,daripada memurungkan diri dan bersedih serta merasakan 
hidup sesuatu yang membebankan tetapi sebenarnya tidak,hanya tertipu dengan ilusi kebosanan,lantas melakukan perkara2 bodoh seperti mencederakan diri sendiri atau melakukan benda2 yang memudaratkn,lebih baik menambahkan berat badan dengan 
duduk membuang masa menonton tv dan online,bukan?okla,maybe it will lead to health 
problems,sooner or later,haha.but yeah.if its me,i wont mess up my already boring but happy life
just bydepressing myself with issues that i can just brush away easily.i'm not bragging,
but hey,at least i'm happy.no one's going to kill me.yet.i hope so.ehehe.takut.
yea,because to me,its pathetic.enjoy life when you still can.why think about problems when you actually have none?buat serabut otak sahaja.bak kata mizah n co.,bapak LLL.
enough said.

so where was i?oh.at last,finally,i watched jerry maguire.taw x citer tuh keluar tahun bila ntah tapi aku br dpt tgk tahun ni???menyedihkan.i know.tapi yea,i still enjoyed it,although its kinda cheesy lah.tp bearable.it was sweet though.my favourite moment?in the elevator,those two deaf/mute couple was communicating in sign language.when renee zellweger said that it meant,'you complete me.',it was like,awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.the sign language,i mean.aww.seriously.haha.i went all gooey,sorry.banyak sebenarnya.but this is the most favourite :)

tadi pun baru berkesempatan nak tgk Pirates of the Caribbean:Dead Man's Chest.yea,menyedihkan,sekali lagi.i know.
there's pakcik depp(obviously.tell something we don't know acee)!!!i was so teruja.haha.i was like,oh depp,it was just last wednesday i watched you slit people's throat happily,and now i see you all cute and afraid of a giant squid.awww.sweet.

actually i'm hungry.my headache is wearing off.food,anyone?

of pakcik depp and mr.robin

erh,post di bawah tiada tajuk.
maaf.
kira sekalilah ni (konon2) :*D

Kissing Me!-Alex,Daniel Henney.



sgt awwwwwwww :*)
oh yea.dia ada di kirana juga =))))

ok the last post was quite emo
sorry about that
symptoms kot.u know what. :**D

i've been giddy lately,too giddy;no,too is an understatement,terlamapau giddy.yea.that's the word.nk kata sugar high x juga.hmn.sampai mzh gelarkan aku shibi master kan.dahla wey,tgh cuba nk taubat!ngaa!poyo aja. :*))))

its already 3.53 in the morning.usually i'm already sound asleep by now,diuliti mimpi2 nan indah.but today i don't feel like sleeping,since i took a bath at nearly 1 am.and i'm not feeling quite well.tulaaa,ngumpat lagi.hehehehehe...

ohhhh,tadi dapat keluar dgn yasmin!!dgn a friend of hers.but yeah,finally!!dpt keluar!!we went to bkt raja,n watched sweeney todd.at first we thought we were the only ones who were watching.aku dah nak tukar tempat,nk sakai dlm panggung dah.then ppl started coming in.okla x jadi nk sakai.so we watched;dh sakai2 sme(we were dreading 'kejadian x-men' berulang,tp x,nsb baik),yasmin had to head home early so i called abah to fetch me,terserempak dgn 'org disyaki gay',jeleskan myl,abgyus called,sggh mynews.com kononnya nk cr 7teen tp xde so i ended up buying cleo.n balik.yeah,that was the so called outing.it was short,but satisfying.honestly.

there,atlast i went to watch sweeney todd,the movie that i was so anticipated to watch.kononlaaaa nk tgk kt pav,last2 kt bkt raja je.but hell who cares.jadi dapatlah lepaskn kempunan nk tgk sweeney todd nya.pakcik depp versi benjamin barker gay gay gila,tolongla faham.therefore my opinion is,tim burton,the fake blood is so fake,please try to use a better shade next time.tp fake2 pon,wey goli denn!it was frigging disturbing!!!generally.it didn't disturbed me as much,and since i asked reviews from ppl who had waatched,i didnt expect muchla.don't get me wrong,it was a good movie,the message was quite good,really.but as lyn said,'it was a good movie but i wouldnt reccommend it to ppl'.but i do recommend it!go watch sweeney todd!but my advice is,please watch it with ppl who have sense of humour.jgn tgk dgn org yg serius n especially dgn org yg tgh depressed,nanti sumpah korang x tdo mlm.serious!well,xlah,tp lebih kurang.
luckily i watched it with amin.the first few minutes of the movie and we were already sakai-ing.no,u can't blame us.since it was musical,it started with a guy singing about london,yeah,london.and i was like,oh gay sungguh!pls,no offense.but i like that pitch black song depp sang,agak catchy la walaupun emo,boleh join mcr.or any emo bands.yasmin was already mocking,we still can laugh until this part.the elixir one(oh ppl,if u haven't watched it,sorry for the spoilers).we were like,omg,pondan nh gila!and after that terus masuk part2 yg mengganggu jiwa.it was quite a suspense,since mr.t nh mcm kelar tekak orang mcm buat vandalisme pada tempat-tempat awam(ok,lame metaphor).sesuka hati je,so we wont know what he'd do next.
eish.another thing,the sound effect was really,uh,ewwwwwwwwwwww!!i mean,i can live without the sounds ok?tolonglah.the costumes n settings are nice,cuma dari segi keceriaan dia tiada.the voices are good,and i mean it,they are really,really good.cuma(hahah.semua ada cuma) bila part johanna nyanyi agak bingitla(sorry johanna,we really dont gv a damn about your nightingale).buat aku pening sikit.the songs are nice,but they are no sing-a-longs.the johanna n the stalker song agak melawakkan.apa lagi ye?hmm.overall it was a good watch;minus the fact that all these flesh and blood will make me end up having a major headache,and the ending was quite depressing.untuk aku agakla,but if to ppl it is very,very depressing.i find it quite funny though,the way the blood oozes out.ada satu nh mcm air terjun,and i was like,'.............wth?'.jadi disebabkan sakit kepala ku yg tidak dapat dibendung lagi,balik2,called a few ppl,solat,tidur.

i woke up at 6.15.weh,berpinar-pinar!itu pun sebab ummi telefon,kalau x sampai pukul berapa ntah.ummi went to alumni meeting,abangyus sent her,and she forgotten to bring her hp,so i had to send a few numbers.soalt asar,sambung tengok Seducing Mr.Perfect.eyt comelllllllllllllll!sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!!!mmg sakit gigila.dhla daniel henney tuh hottie yawww!!aish.sungguh menggetarkan jiwa(ew.ok??).it was kinda good,really,only towards 
the end its getting cheesy lah.alah,korean drama kn,what do u expect?and i really like the soundtrack.sweet and calming.eventhough sumpah x faham except for kiss dgn hello.since witch yoo hee really depressed me;melihat dennis ditolak begitu sahaja mmg menyedihkan.gadis itu mmg buta,jadi memang tiada mood untuk menonton,buat sakit hati,lagipn boleh tgk online kn?jadi layanla 'menawan encik sempurna' nh.haha.geli geli.if u have nothing else better to do,try to watch it!dptla mengisi masa lapang,and for ladies boleh mencuci mata n mencairkan diri masing-masing.urgh,tolonglah.corny nk mampus.

so that was my day,yg agak gembira dan sempurna(except the fact that i'm starting to get a cold).till,then,toodles~~


oh,btw,this is the link to Seducing Mr.Perfect.just in case :D
http://www.mysoju.com/seducing-mr-perfect/

i shall not live in vain.

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain.
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

    -Emily Dickinson

My almost 18 years of life had been great.i've faced upon many challenges,trials n tribulations,the good times,the bad times.i've met many people,from the good to the bad,from the straight to the queer,from the kind to the nasty;people whom i never thought i'll ever meet,either its 
for the best or the worst.Allah let me be born in the most perfect family,well,we do have certain issues,but this would be the best that i could wish for.they are understanding,loving,caring,supportive,everything.i found friends,beloved friends,from every shape and sizes,from the kind to the annoying.eventhough not everyone is perfect,including me myself,we had been through every single moment.either in happy times or any hardships or even blunt stupidity,we still have each other.i love then for who they are,and they love me for who i am.we pushed aside every single indifference,as long as we accept each other;thats all that matters,right?through it all,i am really happy.i truly am.

but why do i feel so empty?

you have a long journey to go,ann.a long,long way.believe me.
one day you will find something to fill in the emptiness in you.