looking back,and looking at myself now,seeing not that much difference,but realising that i'm totally different from what i used to be.
yes i do have personality issues.trying to be myself,but actually living my life on other people's expectations,trying to prove that i'm not what they think,but in the end the me myself is relying on other's expectations.
fuck i have no idea what am i rambling on anyways.
the point is,the urge to run away to a place that no one knows me is too overwhelming.in need to be invisible.but also in need of someone to actually see me.
seeing so many people.seeing none noticing me.
caring about too many people.caring not to care that so few really cares.
ignoring so that i wont get hurt again.ignoring the fact that i'm hurting just to save my own ass.and how it hurts when it backfires.
. . .
yeah and its just me being all emo again.just need some reality check.huargh.
aitakute,aitakute.from new favvie,mei-chan :)
