devastated part II.

okay pada asalnya nak lepaskan geram sebab uia tak offer short sem.
I mean,like,why?so the web says that they'll be offering short semester then out of sudden oh short semester is only reserved for 3 seats only for BM class.

??????????????????????????????????????????????????

ok.firstly.DO NOT give hope to us by saying that "short sem intended for repeaters but you can take the other subjects required by the university" and definitely DO NOT put up the notice that said with both semesters WITHOUT saying that it is very,very limited.come on man,only 3 seats?ugh.beri harapan palsu kat aku yang sangatlah berkobar-kobar nak masuk gombak sebab tak larat duduk rumah asyik kena marah dan aku yang degil ni tak pernah lah nak berubah supaya tak kena marah lagi so gombak is the only option out I mean like whaaaaaaaaat.dahla malam tadi punya semangat pukul 12 dah bukak website semata2 nak register so tak lembab lah kan server nya.tengok2 in the end?aku tak taulah nak cakap apa.ni pun sebab dah petang kebengangan aku dah reda so I'm like,redha je lah kan nak buat macam mana lagi.sighs.

luckily pagi tadi when i was like fuming suddenly i opened this tab and saw

BAPAK COMEL TERUS TAK JADI NAK MENCARUT2.
ehem.so actually he was singing a cover for You're My Lady (yang aku habis2 dok repeat since last night until now) and tengah busy2 pause je tapi tak sedar terpause kat mana bila bukak balik and I was,d'awwwwwwwwwwwwwwhh ;___;













riight.like always;3 months of absence and all i did was spazz.and complain.and whine.gosh.i need a life.

devastated.

so i'm officially converting myself from an ambiguous elf to a proud shawol.

bpk sedih tak dapat pergi super show TT__TT

entah bila shinee nak datang malaysia kan.but since dbsk and suju dah datang,diorang akan datang jugalah kan lambat laun pun.kan.kan.kan.

*cries silently.my rm138*

dark blue,dark blue.

i got my purple contour coke glass,finally.
haha.
i was no mood for mcd actually,but since this week's glass is in purple,tee hee.
a purple freak i'll always be :D

anyhoo,i cracked myself up hard the whole time watching this.
i mean,what on earth are you talking about dudes?
pardon me it's in korean,but fantastic?elastic?what do you mean??i mean,what does that elastic refers to???*rotflmao*
i was almost expecting to hear plastic somewhere,but it didn't come out.thankfully(?)
however,despite the inappropriate -tic rhymes in it i do find the song fun.ny.no no i do enjoy the song.somewhat yes i do.
and i can't bring myself to ogle these kids though.they were..okay.but eye-candying them makes me feel like a child molester.okay that was so exaggerating =="
but taemin is cute :o and minho is..cool?minho,would you ditch donghae-hyung for me,for noona,minho?would you?
hahaha.what the fugg.
so much of feeling like a child molester *rolls eyes*

results for semester 1 09/10 will be out soon.soon.yes,soon.indescribable,what i'm feeling right now.totally inexplicable.sighs.


. . .

off to dodong song to make myself feel better.hee

:D

sick muse.

another week to go before new semester starts.

excited?no.anxious?i can't comprehend for what.thrilled???i don't think so.
oh well it'll be just a few more days to settle my feelings towards this matter.or whatever.

so later in the evening i watched this series korean ghost stories,basically about ghost stories in korea,well you get the idea.and the tale was about some mystic bead that could make even the ugliest woman beautiful yada yada.omg this is so boring.anyway despite the cliche of the storyline,it surprisingly had so much to say.

lesson to be learned #1 : never,ever become a concubine.i mean,craving love from only one guy who in a way neglects you and only comes to you when he's bored with some other chick who's practically in the same shoes as you?seriously honey,i don't really see where this is heading to.

lesson to be learned #2 : never,ever,i tell you,EVER underestimate the jealousy of women.although i am obviously being classified under this population,it does surprise me how far the power of envy can take you.well,bitching can be the simplest act and yes it is considered childish.but to some extent,the results ain't going to be pretty.

lesson to be learned #3 : and what is this about beauty is only skin deep?you can be pretty,but you must also have a personality to boot to make you beautiful.yes,a total cliche.but i really do not understand why,why (regarding to this mystic bead thingamajig story) does the king skipped the first night with the girl just because she had freckles??freckles!who gives the fuck towards some frigging freckles!she's like a whole lotta prettier than me;i can assure you that,believe me on this,and yes i do not have freckles.and hello,free service?


and as heavy as it is with irony,i can't help but to quote the king.

"...everyone says that a king can have anything he wants.but a king can not love only one woman,especially the one he truly loves."
(or some sort.maybe i added some flowery details,but yeah it goes in circles)

actually i was like,mehhhhh.how sweet!yeah.to have a king who can have as many women as he pleased to call his own,to actually say this.i wonder if this can be applied to the society nowadays.hm.

so much of a ghost story.more like a tragic love story,to be exact.with lots of gore.

. . .

oh && look what I've found.
cute.and of course i am jealous.duh?
(but not as jealous as the ariel lin's,because in this they broke up?bwahaha!)
at first i was thinking,nahhh,hae wouldn't go for this girl,she looks too old for him.pretty,very,but yeah.
then i found out that she's an 89-er.like,bwoh??????? o_o
heck hae looks younger than her!or so i thought.
by the way,i don't really get the mv.
so they broke up in the end?and why did they broke up?why is that girl looks so berserah??why do you look so berserah when you had to broke up with lee donghae??it's lee donghae!tell me?!
haha.okay.stop being what the effer =="


actually,the truth behind the story is..

the prince of all fishes : yobosayo.yahh,how's my jagiya?
is thankful she's not a fish : oppa.stop fooling around with jang ri in-sshi.bring your ass back home immediately!
the prince of all fishes : eheh*sheepish laugh*how d'you know who i'm with?
is thankful she's not a fish : it's all over the media?like duh?
the prince of all fishes : oh really?ehehehe*sheepish yet cute laugh,again*
is thankful she's not a fish : oppa nappa.you said i'm your one and only *pouts*
the prince of all fishes : acee-sshi,of course you're my one and only.always were and always will be.
is thankful she's not a fish : sweet talk.men and their sugar-coated lies.
the prince of all fishes : that's why i'm your sweetest drug baby*winks*

HAHA CRAPTALK AT 3 IN THE MORNING!YOU DEFINITELY CAN'T BLAME ME!*evil laughs*


be it hugh jackman,josh hartnett,shia,top,james mcavoy and even kim bum,they failed aimlessly to kick hae off the spot.haish.

well,enough junkpost for now.the brain needs a rest from all these craploads.


:D

sweetest drug.

oh my super girl man wo shi ni de super man girl ;D

geng is a total weirdo
bajet clark kent turns superman lah kononnya
nasib baik last2 boleh tahan hot dia
oh and that snsd girl,she's bearable.
since she's nowhere near hae
haha!gila psychotic aku ni =="

shooper shooper,shorry shorry
sangatlah tidak memahami kenapa aku masih melayan
i need to stop (and for how many times i've actually said this?)
someone,please,at least put me on probation or something
and the offense is for being too addicted?hm.
sighs.

won't someone stop this train? part II

my one week of solace has finally coming to an end.

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! ToT

so not wanting go back to pj.
sangatlah tak bersedia dengan apa yang menanti di uia nanti
(classes,extra classes,quizzes,tutorials,individual speaking test,timed-in-class essay,fim assignment,MIDSEM EXAM,diskoe and voyage)

NOOOOOOOO......!!!!!!!!!! T^T

*sniffles sniffles sniffles*

the last matter is the one that has been bugging me mostly.for so many reasons.ugh.not going to mention it ==."

come to think of it,there's not even a single positive thing to look forward to in pj.lainlah kan kalau everyday boleh keluar.there are tons of places to go.cfs is like in the center of every hotspots in kl.just name it.i guarantee the tranportation costs less than rm10.sadly i'm stuck in it.stupid uia rules.

i don't even have a bf there to look forward to seeing,nevertheless a crush.no even if i have a crush (or crushes?) i won't look forward to see him (them?) either.why's that so?i wont mention here either ^^

unless james mcavoy decides to stop acting and comes to uia kicking my current lecturer away,teaching me writing and reading instead.damn if that ever happens,every attendance will be full,i'll even attend all his classes i'm not in.i'll make stupid grammar mistakes for his personal consultation.and i wont even try to hide from him in class (bak kata the current lecturer,i always seem to be hiding from her.well when you sit at the last and the end of the row,you really can't blame her for accusing right?teehee),i'll sit beside dayat if i have to (fyi,he usually sits infront of the teacher's desk,explains why his name is used.haha.)

imagine him being your english lecturer.sighs.

yes i've just watched penelope yesterday and it seems that the jamesmcavoy virus attacked again after disappearing for like a year or so.i think i'm liking him better than shia.so peeps,you may take shia.i'll have doses of johnny martin for the moment (although suju's is still empowering.i find that it is somehow undestructable and cannot be cured.hm).any movies,i may say.well maybe minus mr.tumnus,he's a little too..hairy?hm.

sir mcavoy : *scans practice essay* why are you agreeing with the opponent's view?
aci : eh?i did?
sir mcavoy : yes in this line *shows sentence*.you're not supposed to agree with the opponents view.this is your stand and you must fight for your own view.
aci : oh..okay..? *fidgeting fidgeting*
sir mcavoy : *reads the passage again and gives an unsatisfying look* why did you agree with the opponent's view??
aci : er..um..it was accidental? *with a supposed-to-be-innocent look*
sir mcavoy : accident ah?aiyooo.go go.take the essay away.
aci : *takes essay* thank you sir..ha..ha..ha..
sir mcavoy : wait before you go give me a kiss.
aci : *reluctant look* if i give you a kiss then you'll give me extra marks?
sir mcavoy : sure.i'll even treat you dinner.and even a kiss back *winks*.
aci : *without thinking much* okay. *kiss*
sir mcavoy : *kiss*

note:this came out as pure imagination but based on a true event.the lecturer role is changed.and the last 5 dialogues is completely fictional.i won't kiss my lecturers even if they offer bribe marks,especially this one.ew.i don't even want her to treat me dinner.i rather spend 100 for dinner alone than eating with her.that's just too creepy to imagine.

bodola acee jangan berangan benda merepek2 pls?haish.

this is if only la kan.it won't happen even if cats start talking and invade the world.if it really does (jamesmcavoy being my lecturer,i mean) i'll shoot myself just to know i'm not dreaming.haha.ok hyperbol =="





tak nak balik pj ;(

geojinmal?

funny.

i felt that a moment ago i have so much to say.

but at this moment i feel like i don't think any words can describe how i feel.

i just want to state this question :

i've always call you a good friend.but do you ever considered me yours?

if you do,how could you say that we are never true friends of yours?how could you say I was never a true friend of yours.or all this while i was making my own assumptions?

if you don't,then i have nothing more to say.

memories will be left as memories.that's all i can say.sorry if we're wrong.sorry if we're not what you expected.sorry for not being good enough for you.sorry for being only funny to you.

and sorry if you have to read this.for the one and only you,and for the ones who have no relations whatsoever to this matter.i realized that this is so emo you should sue.

i promise this will be the last post i'll ever mention this.i promise i'll get back to suju (or anything for this matter) after this.

bye.

sexy back.

or is it sexy backs?

or sexyss are back?(ada ke sexys?memandai je.sexy ada plural form ke?bukan dea adjective ke.ok jangan madam beena sangat.)

whatever.the most important thing is,hae's back IS sexy.
super sexy,mind you.
they should be in a group called super sexy instead of super junior.i mean,c'mon,you can be forever sexy,but you can't be forever junior.

. . .
ok that is so absurd and pointless.

but seriously,if i were to be one of those in the front row,i'd be totally dumbfounded.watch hae striptease and not able to do anything?serious offence.i'd do anything to touch his back.

acee,stop being a pervert.

and the part with the sluts bitches whores? i can't decide which word is more appropriate,tak perlu la kan sebenarnya.patutlah most of the vids duration is only 6 mins,tetiba yang ni 7 something.haha.no one really want to see you slutsbitcheswhores ?.

maybe i should try to stop myself from infesting this blog with meaningless fangirl ramblings.start talking about current issues ke.
ha.speaking of which.due to the ppsmi issue.really,i don't get it with the government.can't you just continue what you've just started?why waste so much money for about 6 years and suddenly you put a stop on it because there's so many objections (for 6 years,mind you.nape tak stop je for the second year or something.mengarutlahh) really need a strong stand right?ok fine.i'm not in the government or something.but the funny thing is,the ones who are questioning these ppsmi crapissue are grownups.tak pernahlah pulak kan aku nampak a student jump out of nowhere in those forums and debates discussing this matter mengamuk2,fighting reasons of why they should or should not learn science and maths in english.cubala tanya batch kitorang ni yang kena jadi bahan eksperimen.and one of the reason is,nanti bm dilupakan.hellooooo.i learned science and maths in english and i got A1 for my bm and B3 for all my science subjects.language is not really a barrier for learning technical subjects la wey.as long as you understand the facts,it won't be much problem.science subjects aku memang hampeh pun.sebab tu la result pun macam hampeh.ada je orang yang x reti english2 tapi dalam slip results maths and sciences dorg hebat nak mampus.haih.whatever.i'm just giving opinions.nothing much to do about it anyway.

ok ppsmi matter sangatlah tak masuk dengan tajuk.but whatever.huhu.and suddenly this becomes a long post.sebenarnya nak bebel pasal sexy hae je.teehee.
kalau nak complain punya la semangat.cuba suruh differentiate an implicit function ke.buat full discussion untuk chem lab ala2 lab report budak2 medcy.haa kau.maw tercungap.




hae IS sexy :D

jealousy,turning saints into the sea.....

T^T

that's all that i can say

T^T



nk lentok2 atas bahu hae jgakkkkk :(((((((

so beat it.

the most shocking news for today,obviously,is MJ's death.

but really what struck me the most is that,last night you're not alone was on air and i was singing my heart out,dok bsg2 dgn sher n alyaa psl it is my most fav mj's (and not to mention that teka-teki,which somehow made me feel guilty about making it up right now.hm).not to mention that madam nora talked about man in the mirror in yesterday's listening speaking class.

so i was clueless about the news until i heard the salespeople in nose bising2 psl the death.no wonder la kn time kt dlm cab td kt radio dok psg lg2 mj memanjang.i was like okay xla fikir sgt until i received a msg from a makcik yg sgtla x reti nk diam

acee,smlm hang dok melalak2 lg mj..pg td dea da mnggl..scary..

bongok pnye alyaa.i dont need remindings.dhla tajuk lagu pn you're not alone.urgh.


and so i was thinking how funny suddenly some moments in your life can be interrelated with a tragic loss of some superstar.eh.i dont think i get my words out right.but you get the picture.



al-fatihah towards him.may you rest in peace.

i miss you,i miss you,more than the stars in the night.

the feeling that i hate most.

looking back,and looking at myself now,seeing not that much difference,but realising that i'm totally different from what i used to be.

yes i do have personality issues.trying to be myself,but actually living my life on other people's expectations,trying to prove that i'm not what they think,but in the end the me myself is relying on other's expectations.

fuck i have no idea what am i rambling on anyways.

the point is,the urge to run away to a place that no one knows me is too overwhelming.in need to be invisible.but also in need of someone to actually see me.

seeing so many people.seeing none noticing me.

caring about too many people.caring not to care that so few really cares.

ignoring so that i wont get hurt again.ignoring the fact that i'm hurting just to save my own ass.and how it hurts when it backfires.



. . .




yeah and its just me being all emo again.just need some reality check.huargh.

aitakute,aitakute.from new favvie,mei-chan :)

groovy baby its almost the weekend! %D

another tag from ms intan salme omar.miss u babe ;)

A - Available?
only for those i'd make myself available for.hehs

B - Birthday?
21/2/90

C - Last cigarette you smoke?
nvr?

D - Drink you last had?
air kosong

E - Easiest person to talk to?
those ppl

F - Favorite color?
purple :)

G - Gummy bears or gummy worms?
idk.arent they more less the same?

H - Home town?
klang!

I- In deep thought?
of cz not

J- just got out of a relationship?
nah

K- Killed someone?
well.no?

L - Lime or lemon?
lemon lime :D

M- Money or love?
sufficient amount of both

N - Number of siblings?
4

O - One wish
too many i cant pick one

P - Person you last commented?
mun kot

Q - Quiet?
with the fact that its already half past 4 in the morn n i'm the only one awake,yes.

R - Reason you smiled?
just thoughts :)

S - Song you last heard
U

T- Time you woke up today?
9.30 9.45 somewhere there.haha

U - u happy?
so so

V- Vegetarian?
nope

W -Worst habit?
am a lazy bum ;p

X - Last X-GF/bf?
johnny depp.i ditched him because of kimbum.AS IF. B)

Y - Yogurt flavor?
tropical marigold i used to buy from koop ssp.huhu

Z - Zodiac sign?
pisces

and all i need is a good night sleep.or is it morning?hm.

won't someone stop this train?

in no mood whatsoever to balik campus.
haih.

tag.

Tag rules.Remove one question and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. How often do you think of committing suicide?

-whenever i feel like it.which is rare.aku syg nyawa kot?

2. Do you think you have enough confidence?

-so so

3. How many babies you want?

-max 4.haha.

4. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

-erm.

5. What is your goal for this year?

-survive cfsiium

6. Do you believe in eternity love?
-bolela thn

7. What's love means to you?

-love.

8.What feeling do you love most?

-being appreciated

9. Do you love money ?

-yes i do :p

10. Is there anything you wanna tell the ppl you hate ?
-ohh u know u love me ;)))

11. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

-yes i guess so

12. What does flying means to you?

-when gravity loses its part

13. What do you crave for the most currently?

-sweet things

14. Have you ever having two or more girl/boyfriend in the same time?

-nahhh

15. Are you proud of your love??

-i dont get this.

16. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?

-ternyata :))

17. What will u become in another 10 years to come?

-Allah knows

18. What is your boyfriend/girlfriend name?

-hibari kyoya.haha! :p

19. What is your ambition?
-being a normal yet successful person

20. Choose one, married to a bitch or a gay.
-mestilah gay.i'm still straight tho.nayy bitches ;;p


&& i'll tag

jujue myla naie mizah intan alyaa

or anyone who wants to do this.
x kesah ler.huhuh.

and my affection,well it comes and goes.

yes, it does.

when the truth is...?

sesungguhnya aku sangat bosan.
dan buntu.
dan penat.
dan fenin dgn fizik.

my classes today are physcs II,maths n writing class.tapi madam laili mc,yg semua org(act,yg prpn je,bros x smpi lg) kena smpi kelas duduk dulu br taw kelas cancel,eventho it was obvious there was a notice on the door stated the today's class is cancelled.tapi hanim gak yg perasan.org laen dok menonong je jln.mungkin kerana semangat belajar maths yg x dpt dibendung?hee :p

basically i was bored.so trigt la kt cc.nk bkak fs tgk2 under maintenance.ms,fb,cm malas.mcm lebih complicated?whatever.therefore i decided to blog.although i'm not sure what to write,but i do feel like writing.hm.

last friday i went to that induction course,yg aku sbnrny xnk pon pergi,lbey2 lg ada explorace??? yg mmgla kn membangkitkn semangat aku (HAHA).but idk,terdapat sedikit rasa kasihan dlm diriku ini yg mmbuatkan aku pergila jgak course tu.ssh taw nk buat aku kasihan n rajin.selalunya aku mmg rasa kasihan ttp rajin tu mmg kirim slmla.
memula nk g yg opening je.pstu mcm okla aku pegi jgakla pagi esok pny.bila group discussion 1 mcm penting je utk pegi yg 2nd pny (well,act sbb azah dgn aku je dtg,mmg sadis la kn klu aku x dtg.azah bunuh aku nnt klu aku x dtg.ke dea lg suka?heee :PPP),pegila.that moment ecah,azah n i were already fenin2 pk nk g explorace ke x.memula mmg dh x nk pegi dh.since yg team b sme mcm stok2 xkn dtg je.skali sister tu g cdgkn nk balancekn.adoyai.mmg xleh escape la kn.so aku pergila memenatkn diri g explorace tu.pstu closing kenala pegi kn,alang2 dh pegi semua.in the end,my attendance was full.

frankly speaking,aku ttw nk bangga atau kesal,sbb aku beriya ckp xnk pegi,tp last2 aku pergi SEMUA.haih.

right now badan ku masih sengal2,sbb aku rs last time aku berlari2 begitu was in form 5,spm camping thingy tuh.mmg dh berzaman la kn.and during that time there's no boys to catch up with.you get the idea.aku nh mmgla kn 'juara sprint'.yea right.

tomorrow i'll be sitting for the special ept.perasaan?tiada.gementar?mungkin sedikit.bt whatever it is,i'll try my best.do pray for me! :D

and yeah.do pray that i don't get caught in my own little game.i'm feeling like it.this is serious.i might mess up.again.like always.sighs.


i think i should go study physics or something.or take a nap.thats all for now :)))

d'you know what i mean?

1st of November 2008



1 month and 19 days towards k.yong's wedding

9 days towards 2nd semeseter

4 days until final results comes out

. . .

gle kentang ah. =_="

seasons with no summer,rock n roll without a drummer..?

zac efron was soo,uh,ew? =_=''

guilty feet have got no rhythm.

ok hari ni aku rajin,mimpi ape tah pegi kelas awal,ble smpi xde org lagi,dok situ nk dekat 10 minit n tgk2 rupa2nya klas cancel.

???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tensi kot?apahal kot xnk kstaw satu kelas?nk ckp xde no. aku rasenye ade je.naseb baek bieyl dtg,or x,god noes how long i'll be sitting there like an idiot.adei.

since my last post,honestly,my life hasn't been a bit better.yesterday we got our phy cam,n yeah,guess what,mine was in red.
fishla.
so i decided to cry my eyes out,thinking that maybe today i'll forget (a little,atleast) about the past,n say to myself,that life must go on.
turned out i didn't feel a lil bit,not even a teenie weenie,microscopic or whatever better than yesterday.
and actually i feel worse.
there's this small voice somewhere inside of me (which i cn guarantee,no devils,setan kne ikat kot?) that says,'tukarla kos.u're going nowhere with engineering'
and aku dh bergn2 dh nk tukar nilai,whatsonot2,nk bljr sejeq lg (konon),but then there's another voice,saying,'x kesian ke mak bpk kau?'
haih.

therefore here i am,once again,dwelling against myself with this losing battle mine,whatsoever.
guess i have to ask my parents,sibs,adviser,friends.......entahla.right now i'm thinking of sticking to it anyway.i missed doing chem (haha) n maths (double haha).

and oh yeah,eventho how hard i tried,i still have this same feeling where as if my heart does a somersault and jumps into a puddle of quicksand whenever whoever is concerned,is still concerned by me.

*censored for infinite cursing*

once you know there was never,never an honest word

the song had been stuck in my head since last tuesday.

somehow chris martin looks like some wacko in this vid,and he actually resembles wt i've been acting like when i'm alone these few days.seriously.

all thanks to my beloved physics.