guilty feet have got no rhythm.

ok hari ni aku rajin,mimpi ape tah pegi kelas awal,ble smpi xde org lagi,dok situ nk dekat 10 minit n tgk2 rupa2nya klas cancel.

???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tensi kot?apahal kot xnk kstaw satu kelas?nk ckp xde no. aku rasenye ade je.naseb baek bieyl dtg,or x,god noes how long i'll be sitting there like an idiot.adei.

since my last post,honestly,my life hasn't been a bit better.yesterday we got our phy cam,n yeah,guess what,mine was in red.
fishla.
so i decided to cry my eyes out,thinking that maybe today i'll forget (a little,atleast) about the past,n say to myself,that life must go on.
turned out i didn't feel a lil bit,not even a teenie weenie,microscopic or whatever better than yesterday.
and actually i feel worse.
there's this small voice somewhere inside of me (which i cn guarantee,no devils,setan kne ikat kot?) that says,'tukarla kos.u're going nowhere with engineering'
and aku dh bergn2 dh nk tukar nilai,whatsonot2,nk bljr sejeq lg (konon),but then there's another voice,saying,'x kesian ke mak bpk kau?'
haih.

therefore here i am,once again,dwelling against myself with this losing battle mine,whatsoever.
guess i have to ask my parents,sibs,adviser,friends.......entahla.right now i'm thinking of sticking to it anyway.i missed doing chem (haha) n maths (double haha).

and oh yeah,eventho how hard i tried,i still have this same feeling where as if my heart does a somersault and jumps into a puddle of quicksand whenever whoever is concerned,is still concerned by me.

*censored for infinite cursing*