it's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen

And we find the reasons why
One step at a time :)

esok raya!! =D

guilty feet have got no rhythm.

ok hari ni aku rajin,mimpi ape tah pegi kelas awal,ble smpi xde org lagi,dok situ nk dekat 10 minit n tgk2 rupa2nya klas cancel.

???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tensi kot?apahal kot xnk kstaw satu kelas?nk ckp xde no. aku rasenye ade je.naseb baek bieyl dtg,or x,god noes how long i'll be sitting there like an idiot.adei.

since my last post,honestly,my life hasn't been a bit better.yesterday we got our phy cam,n yeah,guess what,mine was in red.
fishla.
so i decided to cry my eyes out,thinking that maybe today i'll forget (a little,atleast) about the past,n say to myself,that life must go on.
turned out i didn't feel a lil bit,not even a teenie weenie,microscopic or whatever better than yesterday.
and actually i feel worse.
there's this small voice somewhere inside of me (which i cn guarantee,no devils,setan kne ikat kot?) that says,'tukarla kos.u're going nowhere with engineering'
and aku dh bergn2 dh nk tukar nilai,whatsonot2,nk bljr sejeq lg (konon),but then there's another voice,saying,'x kesian ke mak bpk kau?'
haih.

therefore here i am,once again,dwelling against myself with this losing battle mine,whatsoever.
guess i have to ask my parents,sibs,adviser,friends.......entahla.right now i'm thinking of sticking to it anyway.i missed doing chem (haha) n maths (double haha).

and oh yeah,eventho how hard i tried,i still have this same feeling where as if my heart does a somersault and jumps into a puddle of quicksand whenever whoever is concerned,is still concerned by me.

*censored for infinite cursing*

of fish n chips.

so as my life diibaratkan as a car crash survivor,the one which the car jth dlm gaung kt gua musang,falling so hard due to earth's gravity,ignoring air friction,and F=ma (ok let me stop this);i think i've had enough of those times where i keep myself in that car for quite a time and weep and swore to myself that i would not go to klntn again by car,and towards the end i'm slowly embracing that light of hope,once again letting myself feel the sun and starting to climb up the gaung one step at a time.however,if u dont layan metaphores and dont understand a single crap i wrote,let me get this straight;my life sucked,and i fucking need to get over it.

just 3 months in cfsiium,and i hve to fckng deal with these internal conflicts that no one knows,hidden beneath those wide grins and fake emtions,trying to be someone i dont even know what i will turn into.i mean,wth is wrong with me???what am i trying to do???who am i trying to impress???

the answers?hanya Allah shj tahu.

and here i am writing crap all over again which when ppl read n the frst thing they'll hv in mind is,wtf?so yeah.i am assuming.and frankly speaking,i'm good at it too.

therefore i have to conclude,why am i the one who is trying to please everybody,and nobody actually gives a shitting hell about me.wtf?omg i'm being emo.again.

please note that the above does not refer to my life in cfs whatsoever.it refers to my entire life.

but then yesterday's study circle did give me the courage to move on.and yes,as corny as it sounds,it did help me to be more bersmgt.so i've decided to move on.get a grip.score for finals (eventho it is C.hell i dont want to repeat physics 1).and yeah.live life to the fullest.why should i care about ppl who doesn't give a shit about me.so yeah.yeahhhhh..!!fish?

ok so i am done crapping.these are my so-called attempt to get over and done with it,via writing.maybe i shouldn't be so self-centered.i think i should care less about ppl.talking about contradictions and irony.

and please.please make me forget him :[

smile...tomorrow will be worse.

well,try me.

in the end,all over again

physcs ku :'((

once you know there was never,never an honest word

the song had been stuck in my head since last tuesday.

somehow chris martin looks like some wacko in this vid,and he actually resembles wt i've been acting like when i'm alone these few days.seriously.

all thanks to my beloved physics.

i keep on talking trash but i never say anything

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